a water color

cool... i had not tried to publish a pic so far in here. so to experiment, i decided to up load one of my water colors.. done long back, which i got scanned recently. its titled village, with some houses, two strange (outside) people walking towards a dilapidated temple or a common structure / building there.

i am forced to draw in an abstract fashion, as i dont have the patience to draw realistically and neatly. But, i guess being able to do such abstract expression is a cool thing as well.

i hope i will feel like up loading some of my cartoon / comic strip type stuff here. Though, i have scanned them, they have to be kept as large files, otherwise the dialogue boxes are tough to read. maybe i should try to draw them on a software and type the dialogues in. i have some ideas for a series of strips... someday maybe?

Fragile

I just don’t get it.. Female’s usually like cute things.. And like small babies and fragile things..
And they really don’t care much about the most fragile thing in the world... the "male ego".
So quoted some guy. Of course, only a guy will say something like that.

But then again... the male – female differences are a reality too… (though I guess I should mention here that, am not saying anything against gender equality, becoz often exposure of such differences is seen as a derogatory thing). So with the disclaimer firmly in there, let me continue ;)

Well, I was watching some movie scenes, and in one, when a disaster strikes, the females in that place act bit differently (not all females will act that way, but in a general way, they have shown some characters who behave in that way).

Anyway, after they overcome the disaster, or a threatening situation, they all hug each other, but in a calmer way than males would have done. Also, they acted less aggressively than males generally would do (or as male’s are shown in movies). But then, there’s the adrenalin as well... maybe it kicks out faster and more in males… which could be one of the reason, along with how they are brought up.

Similarly, I have observed in group settings... such gender differences… girls or women tend to talk more about relationships, care about birthdays… and the fun things that guys consider are more bashful and loud stuff. Females tend to notice and talk about dress designs, jewellary or some such things which often males are unaware about their existence. I guess I am not talking about anything new, and maybe its politically incorrect as well… but it doesn’t take a rocket scientist to observe such behavioral differences. (man, I better stop, I am overloaded with cliché’s right now).

Well, but before I leave, a question (as usual), how much reality do movies portray? Doesn’t movies and real life copy from each other? And my guess is that there are lots of movie buffs out there ready to take it on… ;)

alien

Met these 2 ppl from another country... far far away...
Since today evening, one of my friend was having a show of his drama, which is partly based on indian mythology (or Hindu mythology), i was planning to see it. my friend is the writer, director, actor in this play, and had consulted me to talk about the flow of emotions and mythological aspects... I must have felt flattered as well... (ego & fame are addictions... deadly or not is a matter of debate).

Well, these 2 ppl from another country want to check out this Indian (or Marathi) play as well… and so we go.

The play deals with mythological issues, and how reincarnation and blind belief’s are so prevalent among the population (especially in India)… many of the dialogues are between a husband and a wife.

I was trying to see the play from the point of view of these 2 ppl from another country… and then it struck me that, the scenes between husband and wife depict the wife in a submissive role, from another cultural view point, where gender equality is more common. From an Indian viewpoint, I would have noticed it at all. Its like a natural flow or natural happening from an Indian setting. How many others could see this inequality which was hidden at a subliminal level behind the protruding blind faith images? I couldn’t figure that out.

I had a long chat with these two ppl from outside my country… Many insights about my own reflexive actions and beliefs deriving from my Asian origin (in general) flashed in front of my eyes. Things which I take for granted, without bothering to think or analyze from another cultural view point.

Gender inequality, obsession with sex and purity, traditional blinders, social-cultural conditioning and many many more concepts… how may of us even get a chance to think about them?

Thanks friends... Swedes by the way… and we could also talk about the stereotypes about Swedes in general prevalent all over the world, and how they could have formed were also part of discussion.

Even though I like to claim that I am a global citizen, I realized how difficult it is to go and think beyond your regional (state/country) identity… as well as your gender identity… and so many more segregations and segmentations. Sometimes humans behave so irrationally and illogically, that it has to be viewed in a humorous way otherwise it may become too painful. Like, how many feel that they are aliens in their own culture or country? How many feel that they are persecuted minority? And is there ever a majority? Aren’t we all in some way or another a minority… and persecuted at times? Of course, global understanding maybe a philosopher’s stone (or myth)… but it’s a nice dream.. what do you have to say?

Bye for now…

random thoughts?

Blogs... Its for those people with a need to publish... Shout out at nothingness…

Why cant just play the game without worrying of whether we are winning or losing? Or something like that..

Philosophizing has always been easy.. (for me).

well... wouldn't it be nice, to be like that.. without a care.. just going with the flow?

Trying to make the world a nice place. We remain dreamers.. idealists... But its nice though.. that's true..

Though playing with zest, with jelousy, with vigour to win is also nice... isn't it?

We want to do it in various ways..

The above conversation made me think of a book called 'The diceman' written by a guy called Luke Rhinehart.

A part of it (one page).. was somewhat like this below:
A guy's wish to do everything... win in stockmarket, write a bestseller, do great community work, explore unknown, build big corporate empire, make a great movie, and such stuff.. and then do all these things in various styles... (i.e. carelessly, seriously, like superman, like micky mouse etc. etc)...

But these desires doesn't take him anywhere.. or takes just zaps him all over the goddamn universe without actually anything happening out of it. and as he wants to achieve them all.. so he is unable to do even one of it well... and remains a slave of the social image.. the propogand to be big sucess eats up the free human spirit.

They are social goals... carrots on a stick created by media, society, culture etc. to keep the being on the run, on the race.

The rebellion, or goals which oppose the media images given above... also are in a way product of the same media...

Because, rebellion is the 'anti' of that image.. for example, "I dont want money", or "I dont want to do that".. etc. comments/values/beliefs are are some examples.. they are jsut direct contrasts of it - reactionary rebellions.

But how to break out? break out in a pure form? that's a challenge. Or its a big farce as well.. what is originality ?

Isn't searching for it, itself a big media image of an intellectual? a dreamer?

Is there a way out of this circle? haha.. now the seeker of originality ends up with paranoia as well...

another random thought. Try thinking back about your college / univ. days... or your previous academic year's efforts. How much of it is of actual use? If you try to re-read those books and try to understand or do something on your own, how well do they seem to serve that purpose?

Weren't those academic authorities making you run after false targets by creating false threats? (just like in the military, where obeying a superior officer's commands without questioning them is drummed into the soldier's mind till it becomes almost like an instinct... that obeying seems like the right choice or the only choice?)...

Any random one's from you?