The feel

Seen her a few times and

Today talked, and

I am crushed.

When the heart sinks

It takes more time

To imprint.

And mysterious eyes,

Hypnotize, and I turn,

Every time she leaves.

And I know, she’s the

Bestest, beautifullest

In the worldest…

And I surge ahead,

Dance with imagination, Fly…

Don’t read, just feel.

Artificial dream

Artificial dream

I want to tell you a hundred things,

And whisper in your ears,

A thousand things, and

Share a million experiences,

And then some more…

I want to be with you,

Hand in hand, wherever you fly,

And see those, ever curious

About-to-laugh eyes,

Forever…

I want to hear your voice,

In every tone there is,

And sit with you and watch

The Sun going round

And round…

And walk with you

In the rain,

Water dripping from our hair,

On paths, weaved with

Wild wet flowers…

And run on the beach,

Play catch-me-catch,

And listen to waves and wind

While watching the skies dream,

And then some more… 

a new era

this june 2012 seems to me like a new era, as if i have passed a new mile stone. its wonderful how many new things you learn when a jump in your perception levels occur.

had a 15 day travelling trip in the last 2 weeks in the month of May, and passed through Nasik, Mumbai, and Kerala... i had been away for 2 years and the gap seemed enormous, changes every where very noticeable.  the world does seem to double its speed of change with every decade.  

in Kerala met my university friend, and his small family of about 150 people... it was awesome to meet those people and only then i realized how much i missed meeting all those people.  the return journey from kerala to nagpur happened in an auto pilot mode, i was in a trance of nostalgia, so the good thing was i was in a slow moving train and had nothing to do but day dream..

post return, i am meeting more than a dozen people who are interning for a month or more duration, and its wonderful to meet new people as well as getting back to colleagues, even though the gap was just 15 days, it seem longer.  (maybe its just me, or maybe others also feel the same way).

can't put down the changes that have happened to me in a very specific way..  and oh yeah, i am moving ahead with barefeet life style, and enjoyed traveling barefoot even in the summer... the sensations that every step gives is priceless, and its a shame to close our feet for most of our life time.  some day footwears will become like video cassettes... ;)

Painting

Painting

Let it be hanged,

On a nail, in your room,

To be admired, they said.

The painted house carried

That weight without a word,

Where I live, with my parents.

I stared, at the expanse,

The depth and colors,

Which they gave me to look at,

With an expensive sign underneath,

Invest in art was that week’s advice

Of priests at my father’s office.

Green grass, pretty flowers

And a lone mountain looks back at me,

Wherever I walk inside my room.

I was annoyed at the intrusion,

Until the golden frames gleamed,

Made us friends, fellow prisoners.

Daughter…

A love is lost,
Do not mourn,
Before ghosts from the past arise,
Let the dawn enter soon…

You have a beautiful life,
Ahead of you,
Wasted words don't count,
Princess of hearts look back, don't.

You have not lost,
And broken hearts mend,
And I see you,
As a fairy tale's end.

Tradition

Tradition

She seems eager to talk...

I can feel the vibes,

Sparks igniting...

But will this fire start

An unholy dance?

At times resolve weakens,

Then even when she smiles,

Feel like covering

The rising sun, again with

A starless blanket, 

To keep it from rising

I snuggle close

To my own arms,

To be comfortable,

Just to stay there.

Retrenchment

I lie down on bed,
Look at the row of buttons
On my shirt, in a line
Like a series of events
Unconnected, yet tied up.

After the routine temporary death
I woke up, tried to identify myself
With the help of a mirror
But couldn’t; Irises kept darting
Like caged birds.

That cage, hung on an
Emotional chain, steadied itself,
When like cattle, I consumed
Paper grass at the office, until
A shrill telephone bell announced,
Without waiting for lunch break.
Axe’s often fall here at noon.

more on barefoot living...

8 months about to be completed on barefoot 24/7...
had a small injury on left foot, but allowed it to heal naturally and within a week restarted 5km running.
i was worried about being barefoot in summer, as roads and much of artificial construction materials heat up... but looks like my feet have developed enough to withstand the heat.
hope to visit kerala in the month of May and be barefoot all through there as well.

been hearing advice about 'why i shouldn't be doing this barefoot thing'. as i look back at the bunch of advice i have received, what i realize is - the advisers always point out things from THEIR point of view - things which concern THEM the most! even though they are telling ME, what i should do, the reasons are all from their own life - its not connected to me at all.

again and again, i wonder, what makes them give such free advice, right away, whenever they find something different. i dont ask them for advice, i dont tell them to do what i do... as soon as they see or hear about my barefoot style, they start off with...
"why? that's dangerous"... you shouldn't be doing such a thing"... (this is the common starting point --> and my guess is that, "after saying this sentence, they start looking for reasons, why i shouldn't do so".

once, i couldn't stop myself, and i blurted out when someone started telling me, why i shouldn't run barefoot - "i asked the guy, please tell me, which year did you win Olympic gold for running?"... fortunately i was running and he was walking in the opposite direction - so he didn't hear my sarcastic comment properly.

i should work on improving my patience.. that'd be tougher than barefoot living :)

gotta re-write...

Without saying anything how do you piece through
Without doing anything how do exhude enigmatism

Your eyes avoid, wander around, Like a bird on top,
When you try to figure a pattern of its flight on a clear sky

And those lips colored so grey, a shade closer
To darkness than light, like petals on a bud closed up

And her eyes like the wet smoke arising under water
Out of thick purple camouflage, released by an octopus

Her aura like the mist arising in the middle of a night
Which moon forgot, eerie enough to evoke silence

It doesn’t end there, her eyes, like the roll of smoke
Thickly reproducing infinite loops without entangling

Is it a crime to experience aesthetics of a human face
An excuse takes wings, like guilt ridden angel’s plight

She always leaves me stunned with her smouldering look
What would you do when it doesn’t stop even at the end?

6 months of barefoot!

the fall season is here... winter chill has given way to free flowing winds and dry leaves floating down everywhere.
i guess the summer heat would be the real test for any barefooter, but hopefully my feet will have thicker skin by then.

.......one thing which i noticed about my feet is - now my toes seem to have a life of their own. the toes are getting used more, and they seem to revel in this new found freedom. by the end of the 5th month of 24/7 barefoot living, my toes put in more effort while walking, and i seem to feel them wriggling more often.
the 4th toe of my left foot (in hand it will be the ring finger), isthe only problem maker. that 4th toe is not exactly straight, and doesnt fall flat enough.
i had never noticed this till now, because if you are wearing a footwear, i guess it wouldn't matter much.
it feels slightly odd, but my guess is, couple of months more of barefoot walking will make that 4th toe to evolve as well.

.........another observation is, my increased tolerance for pain.. earlier if a thorn pierced my feet, i would be all upset, and feeling sorry for myself for a long period of time.. not now! these days, its just a thorn to be pulled out and then move ahead. and i absolutely had no problems at all, and feel my feet are at their healthiest in years.

anyway, cant give out statements and predictions so early. but so far everything seems cool... barefoot for life!

Hey, let’s be…

Hey, let’s be…
There is an element of attraction
Want to watch you move, smile, hesitate,
Flicker your irises in wonder, joy, jealousy
Anger, and in your private pretensions…

And something more which makes me feel
Protective, helpful, sensitive,
And with shower of appreciations, clean out your
Self doubts, concerns, worries which you pour out
Every now and then, it seems to me…

And another element, which wants to see
You hesitate, perplexed at simple things
When you are like a child, helpless, unsure,
Unexposed and cute and amusing as well…

And then there’s a temptress, voluptuous woman
To caress, to embrace to be lost together
And that crazy friend, to be with
To talk to and to listen to and share
The one to tell, the one to hear, be informed
Be asked questions while taking for granted
That I will know, you will tell and so on..

And that craving to be with, and the equal amount
Of concern, not to crave, not to bother you...
But let you be free, let it all be objective,
I care too much to tie it or term it all in one
So am gonna just let it fly… Hey let’s be...

reasons for going barefoot

The reasons I started to live barefoot (not using any footwear 24/7, 365 days)

1) Want to live a simpler life, and find out whether footwear is a real need or just a media created demand.

2) Want to reduce my carbon footprint - so I will be using less synthetic, plastic material - as most shoes/footwear uses that, as well as any footwear material for that matter.

3) Reduce brand crazy consumerism and materialism - what you wear defines you or establishes your status kind of attitude adds fuel to human greed and burning up our earth.

4) Work on my own ego aspects - as i had been obsessed about style and type and number of footwear I own as well as what others wear! Been a total sucker for those footwear brands - so, now to be more of what I am as I am...

5) To feel and manage the inhibition of being footwear less person, from both internal (my own) and external reactions... (as well as to perceive how does it feel to be discriminated on the basis of not having a social status symbol in other words).

6) To feel the sensation: To feel the natural objects as my feel comes in contact with them, rather than keeping my foot covered up all the time with some plastic/rubber/synthetic material. How does grass, mud, rock, wood, leaves, asphalt, cement etc feel which we walk over every day?

7) To know whether a person can live without footwear or here. Is it really a basic necessity, is a question I want to answers by live experimentation…

8) To be part of economically disadvantaged people in this world who cannot afford even footwear, and empathize with them till there is more equality in this world, and last but not least...

9) To show that we have to be considerate of other people, and not litter and dirty the earth... And take responsibility to keep our surroundings clean enough for people to walk barefoot anywhere...

I didn't find all these reasons at one go, but i keep finding more such insights through my experiences, reading and observations...

lots of people are asking me reasons... so now i can give them link or google ;)