I have been searching for many answers.
But specifically, how to be successful? Has been a focus. (I wasn't even aware, i had such a focus, on this question).
But, yeah, what's success?
Popularity, (acceptance by large number of people, that you are successful)...
Money (lots of resources),
Few close relationships, where others worship you...
Things and people named after you (proof that you have contributed to world)..
Many more things, i guess.
But, i have been focused on finding answers to these above.. My focus on studies, at profession/work, interaction with others, everywhere, this focus often distracted me.
It also did a good thing, along with time (years), it also distracted me from trying to go after success.. As i was more interested in finding out what success is (maybe as a theory).
So, i tried many ways, and more unconventional ways as time passed. But it was tough, no answers were forthcoming.
I lost faith in conventional wisdom. Stopped listening to others, played devils advocate with anything i read.. My popularity tanked (whatever small bit i had). My career, personal life, intelligence, physical abilities, middle class childhood advantages (compared to majority of Indians, i was less poor)... All seemed to go down.. I was becoming a failure in society.
In middle class, you are taught one thing repeatedly... Success is moving up in your economic class, thus moving up in social class as well.
Failure is, moving down.. If i am going down the base (economic class) i have been provided by my family, then its a big failure indeed.
Fortunately, in my focus to find my answers, i began to neglect this above middle-class wisdom. (Even before i started a gypsy lifestyle, i had been an edgy rebel... Which i guess most people who know me will agree with). Its not a compliment, not something positive for most people.. Being edgy rebel is kinda being stupid.
And as i neglected, how to be successful, gradually i realized that it doesn't matter..
I dont have to know how to be successful.
I don't have to find any answers.. I don't have to pigeon hole myself into any labels, or categories.
Earlier too, since many years earlier, i have been living an unconventional life.. But without much awareness of why's and how's.
I still have no answers, but the questions have gone. Neglecting the conditionalities, of how to be successful, made those questions go. At least, that's what i have understood now.
I a twisted way, my middle class conditioning also proved to be its own remedy (for me, in my opinion).
Maybe you understood.. Maybe not.. But i had to try and share these awareness...
Tuesday, November 20, 2018
Thursday, September 06, 2018
Chillum puran
Like all puran's, or mythology / scripture/legends of chillum, there are many stories.. Some even contradictory!
And there's no record or proof or any such thing. These myths are organically evolved. They spread like memes, and often applied in circles.
The circle consists of a group of people, who dedicate about an hour to sit around in a circle for the ritual.
As its prepared, someone does work to fill the mix, another prepare saafi, and someone else booms it. There's often silence as its passed around, to right or left side, depending on choice of boomer, or the group belief.
Last person starts cleaning process. At most respect is given to the process, with priority given to the ritual.. And to each member of the circle. Similar to Japanese tea ceremony.
Each action required for the completion of the sharing is discussed in a logical way, with focus on sharing attitude and mutual convenience.
These details will be discussed by different people. In each circle, some traditions are revealed through oral recounting of some story.
An often asked question is about shiva and shakti circles. First one goes to right side and second one goes to left. A basic proposition is, it depends on the energy of the person booming it. But thats just one theory.
More laters..
And there's no record or proof or any such thing. These myths are organically evolved. They spread like memes, and often applied in circles.
The circle consists of a group of people, who dedicate about an hour to sit around in a circle for the ritual.
As its prepared, someone does work to fill the mix, another prepare saafi, and someone else booms it. There's often silence as its passed around, to right or left side, depending on choice of boomer, or the group belief.
Last person starts cleaning process. At most respect is given to the process, with priority given to the ritual.. And to each member of the circle. Similar to Japanese tea ceremony.
Each action required for the completion of the sharing is discussed in a logical way, with focus on sharing attitude and mutual convenience.
These details will be discussed by different people. In each circle, some traditions are revealed through oral recounting of some story.
An often asked question is about shiva and shakti circles. First one goes to right side and second one goes to left. A basic proposition is, it depends on the energy of the person booming it. But thats just one theory.
More laters..
Thursday, March 22, 2018
Out of confusion
Altered carbon is a book, been made into a tv series.. 2 more books been written as sequels as well. A sci-fi, where 100's of years ahead, human consciousness can be uploaded into human body, or synthetic body.
Of course, morality n ethics, human rights etc change accordingly.
Just putting across this scenario, to connect with our present times.
So, what's some of the most pressing issues of present times? What are your major dilemmas?
The idea of reading sci-fi is, to liberate ourselves to next levels, where many blocks won't exist. But new dilemmas may. If you are the type who gets confused by such mental jumps, this piece of blog is not for you.
But, if you like such stuff, keep reading.
So, are you willing to explore yourself in such alien waters? Are you willing to explore or take such a trip? Then, join.. A world without boundaries, limitations.. Full of abundance, where each moment is a trip of infinite possibilities, insights etc. Which is scary.. But that's being an edge dancer.. The conventions of 21st century are history for you. (Its not 20th century, but current century, which's been traversed by less than 20 years... At present).
Those trips are what you can look forward to. Where whether you are wearing a black or brown or male or female body would not matter, whether human or alien.. As earth will be seen as inhabited by primitive species.
So bye to those confused, and tune in & tune out).. Without bothered by out of body experiences.. Out of mind experiences are gonna be common soon... Welcome to team..
Of course, morality n ethics, human rights etc change accordingly.
Just putting across this scenario, to connect with our present times.
So, what's some of the most pressing issues of present times? What are your major dilemmas?
The idea of reading sci-fi is, to liberate ourselves to next levels, where many blocks won't exist. But new dilemmas may. If you are the type who gets confused by such mental jumps, this piece of blog is not for you.
But, if you like such stuff, keep reading.
So, are you willing to explore yourself in such alien waters? Are you willing to explore or take such a trip? Then, join.. A world without boundaries, limitations.. Full of abundance, where each moment is a trip of infinite possibilities, insights etc. Which is scary.. But that's being an edge dancer.. The conventions of 21st century are history for you. (Its not 20th century, but current century, which's been traversed by less than 20 years... At present).
Those trips are what you can look forward to. Where whether you are wearing a black or brown or male or female body would not matter, whether human or alien.. As earth will be seen as inhabited by primitive species.
So bye to those confused, and tune in & tune out).. Without bothered by out of body experiences.. Out of mind experiences are gonna be common soon... Welcome to team..
Friday, January 26, 2018
human future... where
where will humans go next? what will help us as a species to go to next level?
many research areas are promising.. but which area is most important?
will wait for your responses..
many research areas are promising.. but which area is most important?
will wait for your responses..
Saturday, July 15, 2017
Biggest bees...
There's lot of info about the biggest bees in the world online.. Not hornet but bee, specifically 'honey bee'..
Apis dorsata laboriosawas a subspecies of the widespread Apis dorsata, the giant honey bee, can be as big as 3 cm in length.
Adapted to Highlands, found in Nepal, these biggest honey bees have their hive's up in mountain cliffs.
But due to some specific reasons, these bees which live high up in altitude, produce a reddish honey, with unique properties.
The red honey's medicinal value which are attributed to the grayanotoxin present in the nectar collected from white rhododendrons.
Gurung people in Nepal are renowned for their use of this honey.
About 10 to 15 GMs of this honey, its reported that, highly surreal and paralyzed type of experience for many hours.
Its supposed to have cleansing properties, but comparatively tougher (tortuous) way to detox than most other methods. Loss of body control, vomiting, etc can be part of this, and can last up to 5-6 hours long, and an additional day might be required to get back to your own self. Fruit diet for couple of days, and a day of coconut water fasting, before consuming and within 10 to 30 minutes, loss of body control can occur. Milk is considered as a way to neutralize, but recovery takes few hours. Some wrongly consider it as a recreational thrill, but its a tough medicine... Many youtube videos have helped to create misconceptions.
But as usual, these big bees are in danger, because their sensitive ecological areas are always over exploited by humans.
Bees and similar creatures are necessary links for plants to reproduce, but few people realize importance of bees... Don't bee such...
Apis dorsata laboriosawas a subspecies of the widespread Apis dorsata, the giant honey bee, can be as big as 3 cm in length.
Adapted to Highlands, found in Nepal, these biggest honey bees have their hive's up in mountain cliffs.
But due to some specific reasons, these bees which live high up in altitude, produce a reddish honey, with unique properties.
The red honey's medicinal value which are attributed to the grayanotoxin present in the nectar collected from white rhododendrons.
Gurung people in Nepal are renowned for their use of this honey.
About 10 to 15 GMs of this honey, its reported that, highly surreal and paralyzed type of experience for many hours.
Its supposed to have cleansing properties, but comparatively tougher (tortuous) way to detox than most other methods. Loss of body control, vomiting, etc can be part of this, and can last up to 5-6 hours long, and an additional day might be required to get back to your own self. Fruit diet for couple of days, and a day of coconut water fasting, before consuming and within 10 to 30 minutes, loss of body control can occur. Milk is considered as a way to neutralize, but recovery takes few hours. Some wrongly consider it as a recreational thrill, but its a tough medicine... Many youtube videos have helped to create misconceptions.
But as usual, these big bees are in danger, because their sensitive ecological areas are always over exploited by humans.
Bees and similar creatures are necessary links for plants to reproduce, but few people realize importance of bees... Don't bee such...
Thursday, June 29, 2017
whats Yeti?
The mythical big foot of Himalayas... there is a unique camp site and cafe called Yeti near Kasol, Himachal Pradesh...
Kasol is generally considered a necessary evil, while travelling through Himachal Pradesh for trekking... but just 15 minutes of walk through a foot path, i reached Yeti camp, and felt like a mile away from any city scape...
fruit orchards all around, silence expect for birds, river and wind... majestic mountains glittering far away wearing snow caps... and some comforts of a cozy cafe...
it doesnt end there.. you can chase wild horses up the hills or play with friendly dogs, or search for a secret cave down... star gaze or sun bath depending on your orientation.. a shanti culture evolved through closeness to nature..
and the people around, the type you could only imagine, the one's you would want around at night in a camp fire circle... letting you be whoever you are.. and to sing together, paint, or plant fruit trees.. all in a days happenings... or a lone photographic exploration through own memories... where the weather changes like our emotions..
the tibetan prayer flags at Yeti's entrance had asked me on arrival, "are you ready to explore the Yeti in yourself?".. i leave that question to you as well...
Kasol is generally considered a necessary evil, while travelling through Himachal Pradesh for trekking... but just 15 minutes of walk through a foot path, i reached Yeti camp, and felt like a mile away from any city scape...
fruit orchards all around, silence expect for birds, river and wind... majestic mountains glittering far away wearing snow caps... and some comforts of a cozy cafe...
it doesnt end there.. you can chase wild horses up the hills or play with friendly dogs, or search for a secret cave down... star gaze or sun bath depending on your orientation.. a shanti culture evolved through closeness to nature..
and the people around, the type you could only imagine, the one's you would want around at night in a camp fire circle... letting you be whoever you are.. and to sing together, paint, or plant fruit trees.. all in a days happenings... or a lone photographic exploration through own memories... where the weather changes like our emotions..
the tibetan prayer flags at Yeti's entrance had asked me on arrival, "are you ready to explore the Yeti in yourself?".. i leave that question to you as well...
Old man..
His shoulders were bit bent, but his legs trek up defying gravity, up mysterious mountain paths..
Nearest cafe is 3 km away, through circuitous stone paths among pine forests, along roaring river carrying millions of liters of water everyday to the plains, crowded with cities..
Firewood aplenty, fruits decaying on tree roots as it should be, wild berries teasing you through thorny mazes, and wild plants and cloudy mountains to stare at..
This place in winter is to be lived, he whispered, while removing wild mint tea from Wood fire of his fireplace, and pouring it steaming to his visitors...
I am living here alone, since last 40 years, don't think I have not seen your cities..
hey this is a wake uo call from reality, get your shit loose!!!! (the visitors mind whispered back to him... listen)...
your cities spewing with waste and even water comes in a pack (bottle) and you have no idea where its coming from. here you go to a river, thee plants provide me food and warmth, which you see around. he cruhed some leaves and proceeded to make his post lunch chillum. they came from englishstan and say, you cant smoke this... see around, its a wild plant here, how can they say that to me?
this house is made of stone, which i carried from the riverside... had to chase wild animals away in those days, and here, where you can pick everything from nature in abundance, but its unforgiving as well, and without faith no mountain man survives...
and shiva is what i have faith in... to know Bhole, bhang is essential, and preparing it and having it is done like a prayer..
after filling, the holder is in receivers position, and above is the giver of the fire... respectful silence prevails, without greed it rotates, one pull person, without expectations the warmth is accepted, and serenity is explored...
a mountain of silence erupted... shiva seemed to dance through the haze. the receiver and giver connected in a shiva circle going right, where 'shivom'... reverberating after each heavy breath... mesmerizing even the audience...
shakti is nature, shiva consciousness... and for mountain people, its an everyday awareness... where you are closer to the heavens... where rivers are created, where change is rapid... all you have to do is just live here to understand... he concluded with a crinkle in his eye, as he waved goodbye...
Nearest cafe is 3 km away, through circuitous stone paths among pine forests, along roaring river carrying millions of liters of water everyday to the plains, crowded with cities..
Firewood aplenty, fruits decaying on tree roots as it should be, wild berries teasing you through thorny mazes, and wild plants and cloudy mountains to stare at..
This place in winter is to be lived, he whispered, while removing wild mint tea from Wood fire of his fireplace, and pouring it steaming to his visitors...
I am living here alone, since last 40 years, don't think I have not seen your cities..
hey this is a wake uo call from reality, get your shit loose!!!! (the visitors mind whispered back to him... listen)...
your cities spewing with waste and even water comes in a pack (bottle) and you have no idea where its coming from. here you go to a river, thee plants provide me food and warmth, which you see around. he cruhed some leaves and proceeded to make his post lunch chillum. they came from englishstan and say, you cant smoke this... see around, its a wild plant here, how can they say that to me?
this house is made of stone, which i carried from the riverside... had to chase wild animals away in those days, and here, where you can pick everything from nature in abundance, but its unforgiving as well, and without faith no mountain man survives...
and shiva is what i have faith in... to know Bhole, bhang is essential, and preparing it and having it is done like a prayer..
after filling, the holder is in receivers position, and above is the giver of the fire... respectful silence prevails, without greed it rotates, one pull person, without expectations the warmth is accepted, and serenity is explored...
a mountain of silence erupted... shiva seemed to dance through the haze. the receiver and giver connected in a shiva circle going right, where 'shivom'... reverberating after each heavy breath... mesmerizing even the audience...
shakti is nature, shiva consciousness... and for mountain people, its an everyday awareness... where you are closer to the heavens... where rivers are created, where change is rapid... all you have to do is just live here to understand... he concluded with a crinkle in his eye, as he waved goodbye...
Origami
This blog's not about origami..
A paper bird, made for a child, in a cafe, ends up with a group of 5 ppl, and another person adds on and so on..
A lot of coincides seem to happen through the next couple of weeks, in mountains, where they stay in tents..
Foraging for fruits, trekking to get firewood to cook n keep warm, sharing in circles, laughing with abandon, discovering in secret, tolerating in silence, wondering in amazement...
But knowing they are labels, painting and playing music, jump to hyperspace, stare at the ever changing landscape around..
Stay cryptic..
A paper bird, made for a child, in a cafe, ends up with a group of 5 ppl, and another person adds on and so on..
A lot of coincides seem to happen through the next couple of weeks, in mountains, where they stay in tents..
Foraging for fruits, trekking to get firewood to cook n keep warm, sharing in circles, laughing with abandon, discovering in secret, tolerating in silence, wondering in amazement...
But knowing they are labels, painting and playing music, jump to hyperspace, stare at the ever changing landscape around..
Stay cryptic..
So many changes...
Exploration of the unknown both internal & external.. Along with a random group you met on the mountains...
Social experiments, sharing, trekking around, tripping but your group is with you in those climb ups, caring, laughing together.. Yes, I remember a lot of laughter booming..
Social experiments, self n other observation, accepting patterns n spontaneity.. Shedding conditions like bubbles (yes cy).. Understanding colorless water and brown colored water equally..
J p pears on YouTube to drums, djambe, shaman, systems, shanti, and shanti times.. A hundred stories from cave to cake..
A time to chill...
Social experiments, sharing, trekking around, tripping but your group is with you in those climb ups, caring, laughing together.. Yes, I remember a lot of laughter booming..
Social experiments, self n other observation, accepting patterns n spontaneity.. Shedding conditions like bubbles (yes cy).. Understanding colorless water and brown colored water equally..
J p pears on YouTube to drums, djambe, shaman, systems, shanti, and shanti times.. A hundred stories from cave to cake..
A time to chill...
Saturday, April 08, 2017
solo camping in forest (foot notes)
solo travel...
generally human beings like to be in a group. 'social animal' is one of the archaic definition of human beings, but it still does carry some truth. solitary punishment is considered most severe among prisoners / in jails. its considered, if a person / human remains alone for a long time, he/she might go insane.
but many people prefer to do things alone, or be solo. solo travelers/backpackers are one such breed. of course, they are not forced to remain alone, but prefer to be so, for particular activity or time period. even though, company is often a preference for many people to travel, do something, especially exploration of unknown.
but, there is something in doing exploration on your own as well. one reason could be, lack of availability of free time and similar interests and style. its 2017 and everyone is exceedingly busy with their life and very individualistic preferences, and if you want to do something totally as you want to do, its most humane to go solo. of course, its just one reason.
anyway, there i was, going to an unknown reserved forest area, alone, with a backpack and a tent. my first solo trip to a forest. it started a morning, by taking various public transports away from city towards the forest area.
(public transport takes time, but i prefer to travel with lots of time, so that reaching the destination doesnt distract me from enjoying the process / travel). public transport is also the cheapest and least carbon footprint consuming, in most cases. it exposes you to new experiences and close to many human beings you were not aware of. ok, enough plugging / advertisement for public transport.
about 3 buses and shared vehicle travels (with lots of questions to strangers, some guide you well, some rude)... reached a road, or mud path, which takes me to the forest. the distance to one part of the forest, a tribal village was about 6 kilometers. but walking through wooded areas, away from noise of civilization, without any vehicle or human sightings was pleasurable and calming. very calming, and like the way dirt get washed away from your body when you pour water on it, the civilized stresses and unhappiness began to be left behind with each step. it was happening automatically as i moved each step into the forest.
after about few kilometers into the forest, which would have taken me about an hour or 2 hours (time / clock lost its significance in the jungle), i cut across to a flowing stream. the water was clean enough to drink, and wash off the sweat, as it was mid noon and pretty hot. i spotted elephant dung and foot marks of elephant. its big round foot had slipped on the stream valley and left deep footprints. the elephant or elephants as wild elephants generally travel in group, must have been there few days ago, as the ground was firm now. the ground must have been wet and soft few days ago, as it had rained.
i was not sure, whether the forest had any animals, but, now i was sure, there are wild elephants.
wild elephants are not friendly, they are scary. i had seen some in another forest in the south, and those were aggressive and often broke up human habitats, and i had even seen them breaking small trees etc, which looked like their play activity. wild elephants often are scarred by humans, who try to chase them away with fire crackers and loud noise etc. they are also fast runners, even though they are huge in size. "run downhill, if elephants chase you", i told myself, as a reminder - they can run uphill much more faster than humans, thus, running downhill is the best option for humans, i had heard forest people tell me, and it seems like most logical thing to escape.
but, strangely the elephant dung and their presence didnt make me more excited or fearful as such. i was feeling too calm and peaceful at that moment, to imagine too much into future.
(more to follow).
generally human beings like to be in a group. 'social animal' is one of the archaic definition of human beings, but it still does carry some truth. solitary punishment is considered most severe among prisoners / in jails. its considered, if a person / human remains alone for a long time, he/she might go insane.
but many people prefer to do things alone, or be solo. solo travelers/backpackers are one such breed. of course, they are not forced to remain alone, but prefer to be so, for particular activity or time period. even though, company is often a preference for many people to travel, do something, especially exploration of unknown.
but, there is something in doing exploration on your own as well. one reason could be, lack of availability of free time and similar interests and style. its 2017 and everyone is exceedingly busy with their life and very individualistic preferences, and if you want to do something totally as you want to do, its most humane to go solo. of course, its just one reason.
anyway, there i was, going to an unknown reserved forest area, alone, with a backpack and a tent. my first solo trip to a forest. it started a morning, by taking various public transports away from city towards the forest area.
(public transport takes time, but i prefer to travel with lots of time, so that reaching the destination doesnt distract me from enjoying the process / travel). public transport is also the cheapest and least carbon footprint consuming, in most cases. it exposes you to new experiences and close to many human beings you were not aware of. ok, enough plugging / advertisement for public transport.
about 3 buses and shared vehicle travels (with lots of questions to strangers, some guide you well, some rude)... reached a road, or mud path, which takes me to the forest. the distance to one part of the forest, a tribal village was about 6 kilometers. but walking through wooded areas, away from noise of civilization, without any vehicle or human sightings was pleasurable and calming. very calming, and like the way dirt get washed away from your body when you pour water on it, the civilized stresses and unhappiness began to be left behind with each step. it was happening automatically as i moved each step into the forest.
after about few kilometers into the forest, which would have taken me about an hour or 2 hours (time / clock lost its significance in the jungle), i cut across to a flowing stream. the water was clean enough to drink, and wash off the sweat, as it was mid noon and pretty hot. i spotted elephant dung and foot marks of elephant. its big round foot had slipped on the stream valley and left deep footprints. the elephant or elephants as wild elephants generally travel in group, must have been there few days ago, as the ground was firm now. the ground must have been wet and soft few days ago, as it had rained.
i was not sure, whether the forest had any animals, but, now i was sure, there are wild elephants.
wild elephants are not friendly, they are scary. i had seen some in another forest in the south, and those were aggressive and often broke up human habitats, and i had even seen them breaking small trees etc, which looked like their play activity. wild elephants often are scarred by humans, who try to chase them away with fire crackers and loud noise etc. they are also fast runners, even though they are huge in size. "run downhill, if elephants chase you", i told myself, as a reminder - they can run uphill much more faster than humans, thus, running downhill is the best option for humans, i had heard forest people tell me, and it seems like most logical thing to escape.
but, strangely the elephant dung and their presence didnt make me more excited or fearful as such. i was feeling too calm and peaceful at that moment, to imagine too much into future.
(more to follow).
Tuesday, March 21, 2017
where is rainbow?
am new to this. i have strong belief i am not a writer. best place, start in anonymity. but i wander, and during such a wandering reached a place called 'no name' hostel. again anonymous. a sign maybe for those who want or need signs.
heard of a quote, pot of gold at the end of rainbow? its metaphoric, but met not just one, but many who arent looking for gold but just rainbow. even rainbow is a concept (metaphorical).. for those who want to be all the colors inside them.. be oneself in a non judgemental way. or i think so.
pure sciences have concrete definition, and a wanderer defines flexible way. or doesnt need any. and here met a bunch of such beings (both human & other kind). but it wasnt rainbow yet.. or thats what i thought, till i found a literal version.
(more to b added later).. whew i wrote somethin .
heard of a quote, pot of gold at the end of rainbow? its metaphoric, but met not just one, but many who arent looking for gold but just rainbow. even rainbow is a concept (metaphorical).. for those who want to be all the colors inside them.. be oneself in a non judgemental way. or i think so.
pure sciences have concrete definition, and a wanderer defines flexible way. or doesnt need any. and here met a bunch of such beings (both human & other kind). but it wasnt rainbow yet.. or thats what i thought, till i found a literal version.
(more to b added later).. whew i wrote somethin .
Friday, March 10, 2017
Life Changers...
well, there can be some major crisis - such as sudden death, or gradual death... falling in love, getting fired, &/ near death experience of self.. etc. but, i am writing about, Life Changers which can happen when you are just traveling, through just mundane experiences - where the change is just 'inside' and nothing big to show on outside...
it's not just me, few others have been requested to write about it as well.. and, most of them would be anonymous people... who use this blog as a medium.. don't know what kinda stuff will come out.
for me, yes, there were life changers, definitely, in the last few months.. or last couple of years, which i remember well. but writing them down is not so easy. but will try.
been traveling aimlessly and then met a bunch of people, and a week of that did create life changers.. will write later.
Friday, June 10, 2016
some videos
got some video's of bakpakng thru North East of India, uploaded onto youtube. here's a link:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EdYe_TJQhjM
and another:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y5XIubZUBwY
well.. have uploaded, small bit videos, usually of half a minute or less duration.. will try to link them, to blogs when i write them. maybe some other time.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EdYe_TJQhjM
and another:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y5XIubZUBwY
well.. have uploaded, small bit videos, usually of half a minute or less duration.. will try to link them, to blogs when i write them. maybe some other time.
Saturday, May 21, 2016
(3) Orissa state, mostly Puri
CT road in Puri, is about 2 km away from Puri railway station, and about 50 km from Bhubaneswar - capital of Orissa. there are many home-stays available, for cheap rent of 100-150 per day.. some have attached bathroom in that one room as well. (in season, like nov / dec, when its least hot, prices can go bit up). overall, most things are cheaper here than most other places of India. about 3km from CT road, there is Bengali beach (locally known that way), which is touristy and crowded area, with Puri market and lots of buildings around. the Jagannath temple of Puri, from many many centuries ago is near these area as well.
CT road is mostly residence area of fishermen, which is gradually changing. about 1km away from CT road beach, towards north, is called as 'empty' beach, which is a deserted area.. great for quiet walks. the beaches are good, but the sea water is not so clean, as on couple of areas in these long stretch of beach, waste water (small streams) flow into sea. its such a pity, as there seem to be multiple NGO's / organizations, who are trying to keep everything clean. a waste water treatment plant is a necessity here. sea waves are rough and it gets deep quickly, so swimming should be recommended for good swimmers.
street food is great in Puri, and various milk based sweets are a must. Konark temple (more than 1000 years old) is few kilometers away. there are many other ancient temples around within few km vicinity, but beware of some people who will try to con you out of some money, posing as priests, guides etc.
bicycles can be rented, many corner tea stalls are there to sit leisurely to meet other backpackers, narrow streets are there to explore around. there are forest areas, and smaller beaches too around. one day tour buses are there, which charge about 200 rupees per person, and could be used first to explore, and then travel on your own pace later, if required. but overall, its an idle relaxing vacation place, and most shops are aimed at such travelers in CT road.
didnt take many photos here. though noticed, the sun sets here comparatively early than in Mumbai.. like around 5pm onwards, and gets darker by around 6pm.. it rises early too, well, maybe i should have noted down, specific aspects everyday, during my stay here, but my main aim was to experience everything first.. so, orissa days now seem idle, leisure days.. which they were.
sunset at puri beach, around 5.15pm
at Konark Temple... huge stone wheel
at CT road.. a temple
CT road is mostly residence area of fishermen, which is gradually changing. about 1km away from CT road beach, towards north, is called as 'empty' beach, which is a deserted area.. great for quiet walks. the beaches are good, but the sea water is not so clean, as on couple of areas in these long stretch of beach, waste water (small streams) flow into sea. its such a pity, as there seem to be multiple NGO's / organizations, who are trying to keep everything clean. a waste water treatment plant is a necessity here. sea waves are rough and it gets deep quickly, so swimming should be recommended for good swimmers.
street food is great in Puri, and various milk based sweets are a must. Konark temple (more than 1000 years old) is few kilometers away. there are many other ancient temples around within few km vicinity, but beware of some people who will try to con you out of some money, posing as priests, guides etc.
bicycles can be rented, many corner tea stalls are there to sit leisurely to meet other backpackers, narrow streets are there to explore around. there are forest areas, and smaller beaches too around. one day tour buses are there, which charge about 200 rupees per person, and could be used first to explore, and then travel on your own pace later, if required. but overall, its an idle relaxing vacation place, and most shops are aimed at such travelers in CT road.
didnt take many photos here. though noticed, the sun sets here comparatively early than in Mumbai.. like around 5pm onwards, and gets darker by around 6pm.. it rises early too, well, maybe i should have noted down, specific aspects everyday, during my stay here, but my main aim was to experience everything first.. so, orissa days now seem idle, leisure days.. which they were.
sunset at puri beach, around 5.15pm
at Konark Temple... huge stone wheel
at CT road.. a temple(2) Southern end towards North of India...
I had packed my bag, after about 1 year of working in a project, and towards its completion, began to remove possessions which i won't require, and thus filled one big backpack (rucksack), with all my belongings, which i can carry on my own (so, it had to be less than 10kg in weight, as i weight some 60 plus kgs. initially, due to attachments,
i could not throw away some un-necessary things, and carried them on, till realization hit me, few days / weeks / months later. then i was able to lighten up my baggage / burden.. (to become more of an email, without attachments ;)
Kanyakumari, as a place is more of a tourist trap.. or the people there are more commercial, and used to people coming there for short stay, of a day, or 1-2 days... mostly to be at one end of India.. of course, Vivekananda rock, which is the real end (about 2 km away from land, a big rock, like an island in middle of the sea).. which you can access, only through a boat ride, is worth visiting.
Trivandrum (Thiruvanandapuram), capital of Kerala comes up next... where i had dome some work, but, soon traveled up, to Tamilnadu, and to Kodaikanal, which is more of a city.. the surrounding hilly areas around Kodaikanal would have more appeal to natural lovers, as its colder, greener and more exotic and peaceful.
from Kodai, to Coimbatore, where some of my friends had invited me to stay with them (they were staying in rented houses on the town's outskirts... most of them, 20-25 year age group, enthusiastically exploring their new found adult life, as the generation of 21st century's second decade... so many differences from my own youth period and culture... these youngsters, dont prefer solo traveling (yet), and more into traveling in groups... more into peace, and not much interested in concepts which divide people, such as regionalism, religion, caste, etc. etc. i was amazed to see this, and kept becoming more hopeful about a better future (in comparison to my own youth experiences). though, not all these youngsters agreed with my positive and hope about future ;)
from there, to banglore, to goa. in goa, stayed in an organic farm setting as a volunteer and met and interacted with most youth (20-30 age group mostly).. tho in goa, many more from all over the world, and i was excited to learn rapidly about amazing cultural differences and personalities.
but, these days were like an incubation stage, and by the beginning of this year, the bakpakng aspect hatched.. a very short trip to mumbai, and train to Orissa, Puri.. something like 40 hour plus train ride, gave me lots of time to introspect and realize what kind of bakpakng i want to do.
in Puri, stayed in CT road (Chakra Tirtha), which is close to beach, but enough away from the touristy / commercial / crowded part of the beach.. nothing much doing, but living alone with own time frame.. fortunately, there were many such solo bakpakers there, who were totally onto themselves.. while occasionally for couple of hours a day, might join others at a tea shop corner for some chit chat. that was it. amazing time, but maybe not everyone's cup of tea ;)
more about Puri, orissa in next blog..
i could not throw away some un-necessary things, and carried them on, till realization hit me, few days / weeks / months later. then i was able to lighten up my baggage / burden.. (to become more of an email, without attachments ;)
Kanyakumari, as a place is more of a tourist trap.. or the people there are more commercial, and used to people coming there for short stay, of a day, or 1-2 days... mostly to be at one end of India.. of course, Vivekananda rock, which is the real end (about 2 km away from land, a big rock, like an island in middle of the sea).. which you can access, only through a boat ride, is worth visiting.
Trivandrum (Thiruvanandapuram), capital of Kerala comes up next... where i had dome some work, but, soon traveled up, to Tamilnadu, and to Kodaikanal, which is more of a city.. the surrounding hilly areas around Kodaikanal would have more appeal to natural lovers, as its colder, greener and more exotic and peaceful.
from Kodai, to Coimbatore, where some of my friends had invited me to stay with them (they were staying in rented houses on the town's outskirts... most of them, 20-25 year age group, enthusiastically exploring their new found adult life, as the generation of 21st century's second decade... so many differences from my own youth period and culture... these youngsters, dont prefer solo traveling (yet), and more into traveling in groups... more into peace, and not much interested in concepts which divide people, such as regionalism, religion, caste, etc. etc. i was amazed to see this, and kept becoming more hopeful about a better future (in comparison to my own youth experiences). though, not all these youngsters agreed with my positive and hope about future ;)
from there, to banglore, to goa. in goa, stayed in an organic farm setting as a volunteer and met and interacted with most youth (20-30 age group mostly).. tho in goa, many more from all over the world, and i was excited to learn rapidly about amazing cultural differences and personalities.
but, these days were like an incubation stage, and by the beginning of this year, the bakpakng aspect hatched.. a very short trip to mumbai, and train to Orissa, Puri.. something like 40 hour plus train ride, gave me lots of time to introspect and realize what kind of bakpakng i want to do.
in Puri, stayed in CT road (Chakra Tirtha), which is close to beach, but enough away from the touristy / commercial / crowded part of the beach.. nothing much doing, but living alone with own time frame.. fortunately, there were many such solo bakpakers there, who were totally onto themselves.. while occasionally for couple of hours a day, might join others at a tea shop corner for some chit chat. that was it. amazing time, but maybe not everyone's cup of tea ;)
more about Puri, orissa in next blog..
(1) So, what was that (your bakpakng travel) ?
Bakpakng, as i would like to spell it due to a reason.. (instead of Back-Packing).
the dictionary meaning / definition of backpacking is: travel or hike carrying one's belongings in a rucksack..
But, that was not MY definition.. and hence the different way of spelling it. i did carry a rucksack carrying (all) my belongings... but there were many other elements added to it.
I wanted to add, randomness to it all. there was no plan, no destination, no time frame, and no goal, and it was a solo (alone) activity.
mainly, it was for un-conditioning in a way.. generally, at present, in 21st century, every day, we try to be focused on time and some constructive productivity, during every second of our existence. been conditioned to behave that way, since many generations, and as close to current societal rules/norms as possible. this was to see, whether, no-plan, no-time based, existence thru wandering is possible or not.. and to see, what i as a individual human being could do. take me out of my comfort zones, and explore what i would be, if there are minimum of restraints, rules, norms etc.
of course, when we try to maximize Freedom, then, Security on the other hand gets imbalanced, and its a price we have to pay.. and as everything in nature, we can't imbalance totally, but only upto some extent. i was exploring multiple limits, if i wanted to do that. (which means, it was not to push myself to some edge deliberately, but just letting everything be, letting myself be, and going with that flow.
i was in one end of India, at Kanyakumari, during the beginning of last year. in a way, these travels had started from there mentally. i gradually drifted up north from south end. in between stayed in some places longer, worked and earned money for these travels, volunteered (where some things like stay / food etc were free), in v.few places charitable organization/people helped, and v.few places were expensive as well to stay/food.
i will try to write about that, in a haphazard way.. some blogs may seem like a travelogue, and some like philosophical soliloquy (talk with myself). but, guess most readers would be aware of these varying styles of writing and will take what they want.
of course, i was barefeet (reasons for me being barefeet i have written earlier in this blog), and was going to use my own saved money from my earlier salaried jobs i had earned. it was going to be on as low budget as possible, was going to avoid luxury and live in a very simple way, to reduce my carbon footprint as much as possible. i could get room / place to stay, for rs. 100, but, i was not going for anything above 200, unless unavoidable, and not spending more than 150 on food per day.. there was no fixed number / ruppees, but, a general gut feeling. cheapest bus / travel form was used, and unreserved train journey throughout, which is toughest but cheapest as well.
another thing which evolved was, i didn't use much info. from internet (my mobile phone was a cheap one, with very basic, 2g mobile connectivity), i had like a budget of 200 rupees per month for mobile charges, 1.3 MP camera on it, and was going to ask people for information and depend on it to make spot decisions as where to go and not go. many a time, it was based on, which train or bus was available, or based on how attractive / exotic name of a place i felt at that moment etc. it was very random, so, its very tough to explain how i was deciding my travel plan.. it was that crazy ;)
**In a nutshell, or briefly, this Bakpakng was letting go, not bothering about 'control'... but, i am still figuring out, how to communicate it in a nice way.. finding out, it makes too many ppl scared/insecure in some way, maybe its my energy now, or maybe i am not ready to communicate it all yet...
Thursday, March 17, 2016
bakpaking, solo...
solo bakpaking is a different kind of experience... perception / view points change so much.
you see something amazing, be it a part of scenic wonder of nature, or some animal or bird or strange happenings, i used to feel, i should capture it on camera, and share it with friends. that was earlier.
now, there is no motivation to even write down those experiences, and share. (i do remember, from the movie, into the wild, a quote.. 'happiness is nothing, if not shared'... but, now i would question it.. why does happiness happen / occur, only when you share it with some one else or others? - is that really 'happiness', or media created 'selfie' kind of happines?
been there, done that - kinda statement seem totally stupid now. who am i trying to be, through that statement? what am i trying to prove? why should someone else have to be put down, or be proven that, i have achieved something?
why this mad rush, a rat race, for achievements? - shouldn't a bakpaker be different from a greedy, trying to prove-self-to-others kind of corporate yuppee?
yeah.. be a hippie.. instead.. just flow.. whatever..
you see something amazing, be it a part of scenic wonder of nature, or some animal or bird or strange happenings, i used to feel, i should capture it on camera, and share it with friends. that was earlier.
now, there is no motivation to even write down those experiences, and share. (i do remember, from the movie, into the wild, a quote.. 'happiness is nothing, if not shared'... but, now i would question it.. why does happiness happen / occur, only when you share it with some one else or others? - is that really 'happiness', or media created 'selfie' kind of happines?
been there, done that - kinda statement seem totally stupid now. who am i trying to be, through that statement? what am i trying to prove? why should someone else have to be put down, or be proven that, i have achieved something?
why this mad rush, a rat race, for achievements? - shouldn't a bakpaker be different from a greedy, trying to prove-self-to-others kind of corporate yuppee?
yeah.. be a hippie.. instead.. just flow.. whatever..
Tuesday, December 29, 2015
backpacking again...
thanks to this blog editors for publishing this. i've been backpacking since september 2015, through south of india. climbed up from kerala to gokarna and now goa.
chilling out with all kinds of backpackers and travellers is my occupation now. took some time to decide and jump out of routine and socially accepted life... but guess there was no need to worry or think so much. all the people (most) are super supportive and peaceful, and never enjoyed such open discussions so much.
being with people from multiple countries kinda makes one understand different cultural practices and to some extent, the gender divide has disappeared. of course, it started with me, when i started looking at myself not as a female of male, and it kinda began to express in interactions with others.
sometimes, i met people, formed into a close group, and had intense interactions and insights... strangers became kindred souls within hours. stranger than fiction experiences became daily occurrence.
hmm.... i will write more later ;)
chilling out with all kinds of backpackers and travellers is my occupation now. took some time to decide and jump out of routine and socially accepted life... but guess there was no need to worry or think so much. all the people (most) are super supportive and peaceful, and never enjoyed such open discussions so much.
being with people from multiple countries kinda makes one understand different cultural practices and to some extent, the gender divide has disappeared. of course, it started with me, when i started looking at myself not as a female of male, and it kinda began to express in interactions with others.
sometimes, i met people, formed into a close group, and had intense interactions and insights... strangers became kindred souls within hours. stranger than fiction experiences became daily occurrence.
hmm.... i will write more later ;)
Tuesday, August 11, 2015
Like Buddha’s Eyes
Like Buddha’s Eyes (2015): (SF, which can be seen as science or strange fiction)
The year is 2992.
Everyone is looking forward to the next millennium, just 8 years ahead. The 365 days calendar is hotly debated, but
the world still sticks to it. The
physicists to their theoretical models
of space travel methods. Man had imagine
flights since millenniums, but it was possible in the beginning of last
one. Sometimes progress was like
that.
“Pharmaceutical industry which gobbled up food and
health sectors into it, had become the biggest producers now. Can you guess why? N1 asked.
The Questions had to come. As the
discussion was started by R1. The pre-fest sleep sessions were full of such
chatter. The designers anticipation
always made a rest difficult state to achieve.
The camp was on top of a hill, overlooking a layered
valley. There were spots, with varied
vegetation. Where nature was left
untouched by humans. Safety policies
disallowed large areas to be totally wild
the one semi-permanent tent like structure, on top of that hill
contained 5 people, all young and designing their first big fest scene. It was a low to mid level fest, bu for young
one’s each step up were a big one. There
were more concerned about the new policies added into NE and & NED – neuro
energizers and neuro energizer inducers.
The super NE & NEI’s were common place. The next levels were under restricted
use. Those big pharma producers are
behind the new restrictions, D3 aired ,with an emotional stress added for
effect, in his voice. N1 countered, ïts
a cliché. These lines been uttered, for centuries by new gen rebels.
Don’t quote from top 100 blog classics. D3 added in a subdued way, to indicate
withdrawal.
CR1 exclaimed, from half sleep mode. Its from ideas for a genderless society,
right? If you review the old clips,
shown as docu3, it’s a good rip for funny situations. The others realized probably it’s a half a
plan for the scene.
Lets not go into that now, L7 voiced as the convener
of that group. Observe, bu intervene
only when necessary, for the whole group, is what conveners role is. The role was not so enjoyed, as often
convener is seen as a blocker, though now, it was accepted above desk job, as a
temporary project.
L7 reminded his console that, these names are not full
names, and used in an informal friendly way.
Console will edit all those names.
People with higher status had short names, the rest didn’t.
D3 was in a rebellious mood. It seems like even today we are acting like
pre 2000. They used to call drugs, as
mind expanders, without knowing, what mind is, or expansion is. Such idiocy.
L7 immediately intervened, technology hadn’t developed that much in las
millennium and adjusted his console to
keep out disagreements. One of the
youngsters almost snapped, keep those controls for the party.. that’s when you will need to so much ego
energy.
L7 put console in auto mode and replied, in neutral
tones. “but party is where we are
supposed o let go, as much as possible”.
It was a non-sequitur, but a reply was popular in underground. Ÿeah, exactly’’. But pre-party’s are supposed to be
unregulated, that’s designers of event or scenario creators are supposed to let
go. There was no policy, and as adjusted
by console, no one was in mood for disagreement.
N1 started b a story as usual. Almost upto first third of this millennia,
organic learning concept was unheard off.
People were taught set information as knowledge or even wisdom. Within set time. They mostly ran away from nature, they
suppressed their olfactory, smell instincts. They had no smelters or consoles
for smell based experiences. The first
smell based producers were called as mad scientists. But that revolutionized everything. Smell consoles were widely used initially
that voice wandered off.
D3 or someone pushed the next wave, lets plan for the
scene. Where do you all want smell
consoles, auditory waves, visuals if any.. and wandering boundaries.. and special effects. There we need deas. Something new to push the boundaries. A bit, just a bit. L7 added.
Something simple, based on natural setting here, they are the most
participated and shared. Like the
compare grass and sand walk at that beach scene. D3 was quick to interject, that’s from the
80’s or even 70’s. an old phrase, though
helps to focus on a new idea. CR1 added,
we all seem to be so in the past. We
need to move out of a conditioned state.
But it went on, even that’s from past and all laughed.
L7 brought out a map of the venue. It had to keep a sense of time at times as
well. It was a view of valley from
above, with depths just as someone started, lets.. holograms of positions where dancers moving
appeared. Even the graphics seemed to
emit a passion, even at that small size.
2-3 fingers pointed at the rock formations, it zoomed in. there were flat enough surfaces to stand and
dance. D3 clicked his fingers, people
appeared standing there started dancing.
It was already programmed.
Difficulty levels, expert level, probabilities of falling and injuries
and treatment possible, health and fitness levels required, etc. came up on the
side.
Other possible places, came up with stats. Possible modifications to make the experience
better were shown, with minimum changes in nature. When D3 probed to modify some stag and light
structure additions, a caution signal came up, indicating, too much fiddling
with nature. D3 made a swear sound, and
immediately regretted, as he knew N1 would start a story.
N1 started, swearing was considered fashionable and
early millennium people used to swear a lot.
Conscious expanders were considered illegal and not much researched
on. Even natural herbs and plants were
banned and users were seen as criminals.
Just like those early sexuality typology they used to have, and other
than one type was considered as criminal.
The pharmaceutical producers themselves lobbied o keep them
illegal. Addictions were feared and very
low tech drugs were only available.
Whole battalions of enforcement professionals, often called generally as
police, existed for such a war on drugs.
Genocides were common too.
Systems were obsessed with control and huge numbers of people were
trained to observe, detect and catch all sorts of people and keeping them in
one closed location was the major rehabilitation method.
Even CR1 enjoyed this one. But still made fun of N1. You N1 are like that widipedia they used to
have then. Everyone laughed.
D3 added, do you all remember those early publicity
material they used to show on their audio-visual channels.. all those brands
were pushing ‘mind boosters’ even though initially they had not much idea about
neurons and their chemicals.
L7 broke in.
whats now known as infoshare was called publicity and before that as
advertisement. But all that changed,
after the first drug-war, even though they expected to have oil and water wars
before that. Of course, the population
was like 10 billion then, and insecurity & completion were enormous and
part of their psycho-culture. Then L7
sated in a different tone, lets all get back to party, take up individual parts
and connect them on hologram model. Then
we take a good break. The group vibe is
ideal for it now.
The party was a success. As usual a documentary of it was put on at
end, in same typical pattern. About 70
people had great fun and even though our group’s act was not the main ones, it
was noticed. Their audiology effects had
lead to ‘the crawl’ even. On 6th
day, it winded up for the post party scene.
Some old timers talked about month long festivals from their time. But nowadays health departments made it tough
to have hat long scenes. The drugs used
for hyper stamina known as postponers were the reason. Week long used was considered fine for most
people.
When ‘like buddhas eyes’ was invented, there were
strong protests. Basically about its
effect on eyes, which formed as if lotus petal like shape. The inventors claimed, its because the brain
became calm and relaxed, like that old nirvana concept of Buddha. That’s why eyes also shaped up like that and
its not a base physical molecule. The
protesters had attacked exactly that.
That it’s a molecule which causes only physical change and a pre
millennium low-tech product. Now as
there are multiples generations of that molecule has been spliced and
synergized, the first version was totally neglected.
The documentary kept on – projecting all these
information. And at health body
spokespersons congratulated the event creators for keeping it within a week,
and following policies. Most of the
audience were zombied out and such a droning documentary was preferred.
The 4 from the event group, celebrated by going to a
beach. There was a huge event, with 10
days full of scenarios. The bigger one’s
could get away with few less restrictions.
The 4 wanted to mingle and share their design samples as well. Maybe chat with some big names. More than a 1000 people were expected. The beach shaped like two half circles joined
together. A floating stage would be set
up in the middle, people can dance on sand, or shallow sea water. Underwater dance suits were also there, where
water added to audio & visuals.
CR1 and D3 teamed together to record data and ideas to
be modified later for their scenes. L7
even though was congratulated by health groups, had taken a break and gone to
find new group. Generally conveners left
groups unless under special circumstances of policy breaking. Its not easy for convener to go against
policies because they have to take certain splices (of molecules) to do their
role, and those splices keep them to the policies. Though as usual some had found way out
through experimentation.
A new convener had joined the group to make it 5 again. Its name was bit tough to shorten and ended
up as Y1. It was not an experienced
convener and the other 4 were lucky to get such a one. Y1 often ended sentences with a why, instead
of stating. An inexperienced convener
were preferred, with a hope to get by through policy loop holes. The names were given as alphabets and
numbers, which was easier to code into teraputers. Space had its share of satellites and putters,
but somehow land was considered safer.
The names were short for the first gen persons, but
later borns were getting longer names.
The length of the name began to indicate a status and the younger gen
started identifying each other they know with short names. A culture derided silently by the
elders. For example, N1 could have been AC3Y2N1. But unless required to state in formal policy
forms, it preferred N1. Other codes
indicated its region colony, and genotypes.
Though the population growth was controlled on basis of eco-balance,
shorter names were highly sought. The
machines which prepared to grow from conception till adulthood would keep the
people in stasis, where time stops existing for them, tilt ere are vacancy to
be brought out. Human rights of an
individual began only after machine-birth and quality testing period was complete. Till then it was considered incomplete, as a
bio-product. When it started, there were
hue & cry about lack of children and its implications on overall
development. The policy makers played it
very clever and allowed anyone to have children, but they also had to take
responsibility of it till adulthood, with all the human rights. That ended it.
Y1 continued with his sensory posts infogram. It moved into current news. Another interesting forethought which is
coming up is allow evolution to take place’ movement. Its also opposed as ‘genecide’. Letting particular genetic material to die
out. The pro-evolution groups wanted to
liberalise all new drug use, and encourage experimental groups, who tried to
develop new drugs or synergetic molecules.
Hey have a new argument, which is from past; the alcohol rules cycle. From beginning of millennia, anto-alcohol
lobbying had grown due to risk to others.
By late 2020’s total alohol ban gained support. For almost a decade, it was banned. But along with end of war on drugs, alcohol
came back, and became viral. Again alc
ban gathered support. But new groups
emerged, which pushed for flood. A flood
of alcohol. A massive death toll then
pushed alcohol out, without policies.
The pro-evolution groups, argue, that the alcohol gene
got wiped out or formally was evolved out.
And thus, in the same way, total liberation of all brain transformers
should be encouraged to reach next level of evolution. As its all provided by nature. As guidance for evolving. Additionally hyper sports enthusiasts asked
to take away all the restrictions, as argued by pro-evo groups. But it was rejected as illogical. The high risk stunts done in hyper sports
have safety precautions, without that, it'd be like assisted suicide. Many hper-sports lobbyists protested by doing
high risk stunts and sharing them. Most
people realized, its just another excuse for hyper junkies to do stunts. Some referendum parties are expected to be
announced soon. This is end of
infograph, edited based on north east region perspectives today. Y1 turned his console into auto mode and left
it, moved to a beach cove, where rock formations had made a cozy cave for group
of 5 to plan next scenario. Probably
they can set up one in this festivities happening for pro-evo movement. In one with more neutral appearance. Y1 didn’t want to affiliate with any one
lobby, so early in his career.
With a sigh, the evaluator closed the program. He had seen enough. The characters with alpha-numerals instead
for names, did seem bit robotic.
Obviously the programmers of that AI had done a good job and will
receive technical credits. But as
psycho-linguistic and social scientist had reported, the AI’s creativity was
still a suspect. Their dialogues and
going aback into past and present to give connections for future probabilities
seemed still conditioned to their present and past. Somehow the experts throught were on brain
enhancers, but that’d be jumping ahead of time.
He was well aware of the policies and politics, otherwise he wouldn’t be
an evaluators evaluator.
Best to discard the whole AI future probability trend
tracker as an utter failure, he thought.
And base it on psycho-linguistic and social scientist oppositions to
it. They will be happy that, for once
social scientists were given preference.. ha!
I should go through it again, without any special
selfish reasons or biases. Maybe with
help of something to neutralize, like that Swiss import. This is a tough case and I deserve a
treat. But the decision could be
conveyed publically that the project is discarded. The technical team will be disappointed,
maybe they had already dreamt about Uber prize.
Uber and his handheld hydrogen bomb had wiped out almost a country back
then, but someone’s joke of having an Uber prize for new discoveries and
inventions had caught on. So much of
history repeat loops. I might be
discarding an invisible man’ project.
The power to decide and influence world events, from far away, its
attractive.
He turned his attention back. The technical team will be given next
project. But they seem to lack
socio-cognitive aspects. And SC experts
lack technical boundary awareness. When
will both connect? Probably a synthesis
course activity must be prepared to train next AI developers first. Then it’d be ripe to try them out. He then made sure the last ideas been
recorded, and then closed the systems. Changed
his appearance for an outing. There were
events to select on his clock, and he selected 2 of them. First one experimental, even a bureaucrat
needs to have fun. He walked out.
x-----x---x
Tuesday, May 26, 2015
comic strip ideas..
1)
son: Dad, i cant take it any more. you are always controlling and pushy, and have my own life... i am going away never to return...
dad: are you stupid? come back home right now. you have no idea what life is. i have more than double your experience. how dare you tell me something like this...
son: final bye...
second dad: what? ok. son. its your life. your decisions from now on.
son: hey dad, since you can change yourself, i think i can change my this decision too. i am coming to meet you.
2)
backpacker: i am going away for a long travel, thinking, know myself, know spiritualism..
MBA friend: are you crazy? its the worst profession or career ever. you never get any money, majority will spit on your face, you will wander as a pauper, and end up sleeping in lonely places. chance of you succeeding (making money) is very low, one in a million. even if you become that 1 in a million, its generally only after your death, you become famous/ worshipped. check out, kabir he ended up as a poor weaver, jesus couldn't even continue his own family line.
backpacker: i am not trying to anyone... or earn money, i am trying to know myself.
friend: oh, do you mean, start an Ashram? that's a different deal altogether. its tough business, but, if you stick it out, then it can lead to a big trust, but, its a 24/7 acting job man.. think about that.
backpacker: as we always end our conversations in bye, here's one. . bye.
3)
have you ever heard of a gaali, dostchod?
no? well, it means, betrayer of own friend.
who comes up with gaali's and jokes? they are always anonymous people..
4)
Have you ever consumed (orally), any banned substance? have you done it repeatedly and enjoy it?
(how many people will have to say YES, if MSG is considered as banned substance & have eaten Maggi repeatedly? ;)
5)
How to make some a criminal?
Politician: Easy, Make whatever that person enjoy, an illegal thing through law!
son: Dad, i cant take it any more. you are always controlling and pushy, and have my own life... i am going away never to return...
dad: are you stupid? come back home right now. you have no idea what life is. i have more than double your experience. how dare you tell me something like this...
son: final bye...
second dad: what? ok. son. its your life. your decisions from now on.
son: hey dad, since you can change yourself, i think i can change my this decision too. i am coming to meet you.
2)
backpacker: i am going away for a long travel, thinking, know myself, know spiritualism..
MBA friend: are you crazy? its the worst profession or career ever. you never get any money, majority will spit on your face, you will wander as a pauper, and end up sleeping in lonely places. chance of you succeeding (making money) is very low, one in a million. even if you become that 1 in a million, its generally only after your death, you become famous/ worshipped. check out, kabir he ended up as a poor weaver, jesus couldn't even continue his own family line.
backpacker: i am not trying to anyone... or earn money, i am trying to know myself.
friend: oh, do you mean, start an Ashram? that's a different deal altogether. its tough business, but, if you stick it out, then it can lead to a big trust, but, its a 24/7 acting job man.. think about that.
backpacker: as we always end our conversations in bye, here's one. . bye.
3)
have you ever heard of a gaali, dostchod?
no? well, it means, betrayer of own friend.
who comes up with gaali's and jokes? they are always anonymous people..
4)
Have you ever consumed (orally), any banned substance? have you done it repeatedly and enjoy it?
(how many people will have to say YES, if MSG is considered as banned substance & have eaten Maggi repeatedly? ;)
5)
How to make some a criminal?
Politician: Easy, Make whatever that person enjoy, an illegal thing through law!
Sunday, April 26, 2015
sunday morning walk..
SR
series 1. something:
we
have to derive happiness from within. There should be inner peace..
or we should be striving for inner peace... As external sources, give
happiness for a temporary period, and generally comes with their own
negative price, and create further dependence.. (I have read, heard
and repeated these same things many times.. but, did I really
understand how to achieve internal source focus?)
I
was walking, in a morning.. its about couple of kilometers walk.. I
am barefoot as usual, and yesterday night, it had rained a lot. The
ground is just right for walking.. its soft, without being overly
moist...
after
few minutes, I see, a muddy patch, and its big.. with sticky mud and
very little water all around, without any gaps in them. I began to
curse my luck, what a lousy corrupt nation and narrow mentality of
our people... but, I had to walk through that anyway, so I went
ahead.. I will have to spend some time looking for water or
something to clean my feet later, I felt, and already started looking
for something..
then,
my feet send me, some pleasurable signals as well.. and I felt,
everything is not bad.. its bit slippery and squishy but, just a
small patch, in the 2 KM walk I am doing.
Then,
I realized, this is what is meant by deriving from internal source..
I could have, through encouraging view points (perspective) which
would lead to more distress and frustration in me. (they would lead
to connected hormones/chemicals being created in my brain, and it
will further influence my behavior. Probably, my body will become
tensed up, to be ready or prepared for such a load of difficulties
and unpleasant experiences further on too.. as a result I could end
up grouchy for the whole day probably... (and what will I do then? I
will wish for some external happening to change my state of mind, and
soon, would be dependent on external forces).
But,
as my thoughts changed, and realized, that generally what I consider
as unpleasant, is just another experience... and walking on soft
grounds was considered as happy thing by my own mind. (if I was
advised by a doctor to walk of mud, for some curative purpose, then I
would have hated walking on soft grounds, and would be searching for
mud to walk on ;)
The
lack of cursing (without an ulterior motive), and lack of efforts
(thoughts) to increase my frustrations, paid off immediately. I
started focusing more on the mud walk, and its finer details. My
body calmed down, and I relaxed gradually... and probably the
chemicals, which make me tense and be prepared for an crisis would
have reduced... and chemicals which give me feeling of well-being and
happiness flow in more.. after few minutes, I meet a person, another
walker, and its easy for me to share mentally with him, lots of
positivity...
I
rather like to add the neuro-chemicals, scientific explanations into
my reasoning. Some people can blindly go into Bhakti, devotion, or
faith like state. I feel it can be blinding, and there should be a
balance. Maybe we reach the same insights in different ways and
levels. But, overall, it was nice to have an insightful morning
walk.. especially on a lazy Sunday... ;)
Saturday, April 25, 2015
backpacking beach night...
it was night, and a group of backpackers decided to walk to beach nearby and have a campfire.. random group of people from various countries, cultures..
somebody talked about an incident from evening, where a police guy asked a local couple, whether they are married.. and it seemed almost like an interrogation... never seen them do that to foreigners..
some countries dont have a marriage system, it seems.. someone bit far from the fire mentioned. i turned around. it was interesting enough to stop staring at the flying bits of fire, going up fearlessly to meet the unending darkness around. (maybe everyone has that courage, when born.. humans train their children from that onwards, really hard, to turn them conventional)..
but, back to the conversation.. (its backpackers, friendly even in a serious discussion), so, even a statement like that got some innocuous replies first. though another one, similarly covered in darkness said, 'isn't it a leading question or statement? seems like, the moral judgement that marriage system is good is already been passed..
now it was getting warm.. conversation wise. (if you let yourself go with the flow, then backpacking nights lead to so many insightful discussions or even debates). somebody else asked.. what about your parents? if they hadn't stayed together while keeping the sanctity (of marriage), would you be like this here today?
another retorted (i am cutting away many details and sub points of the whole conversation, and writing only the relevant points.. otherwise, it will be like one novel). how much of marriage system is due to patriarchy? due to easy digestion of romantic books, TV, movie etc and cultural pressures?
would a mother, who is now in her 50's or 60's.. from a traditional country, opt to keep the marriage going, if she had enough freedom?
"yeah, its like that Clint Eastwood movie, 'bridges of Madison county'.. Meryl Streep's children find their mother's liberation as shocking..
how can one decide, what things their parents did, should be followed and what should not be followed? is there a logic to it all? will even 2 conventional people, brought up in a blinding middle class community, be agree to what's ok & whats not ok, in totality?
another quipped. lets not bring mothers into this. i respect mine and she has sacrificed a lot.
reply came for that immediately. yeah, but, now i can't help but ask one. would you be willing to live your life like your mother? you should totally be willing right?
another added.. you are drifting. so, lets get back to the old topic, before the mother statements came in. . its all like the question - what's faith and what is blind faith? can even two faithful people agree on that?
either you can break out and see things differently or not. and, i won't divide developed and developing countries.. more like, people with net access and without. as net gives lots of exposure... criss crossing information across world wide through social media and internet.. so, its a choice, whether to see beyond one's boundaries or not. another stated lazily..
(the waves in that beach, seemed to be doing just that kind of thing.. hitting with waves of logic, one after another, against the rigid, hardened land..)
at least the waves never give up, a sleepy voice indicate breaking up of that beach night gathering.
...... (other quotes from that night)...
"if you want freedom, and acceptance from others, to be the way you want, then,
you should be willing to let your mother do all those things as well.. can you? can she?
"to be free, one must be willing to give that same freedom to others as well - the more you practice control over others, you too will remain constricted and constipated".
"everyone complains about, injustice, unfair things happened to them.. or done to them... and the difficulties they have to face.
no one questions the opportunities they get, the happiness and freedom they currently have & had... that's taken for granted. and it creates an imbalance.. as even a small % of problems balloon up!"
...
"people think, its the desire to succeed, the strength of the will or wish, which leads us to that...
but isn't it the desire to do things (which may lead to success or happiness), which is to be strong?
"everyone has 1000's of wishes, but the person, who actively pursues by doing, is the person who succeeds. and sometimes, when a successful person, says on TV/print, that they never wished/expected/planned for it... some of the viewers feel jealous.. (how the hell did she/he got it? such a waste of all that fame/success. here i've been wishing for that since years and nothing).
often the wish or desire is for fame and worship.. which certain success can bring. and that takes the focus on to the fame/fandom... and distracts from actually accomplishing - as focus to achieve what needs to be done remains neglected.
these people become known as complaint boxes, or who perennially talk about all the misfortunes, that befall on them.
probably i would have said, in my younger years, to such a person.. "then why dont you wish for what you get easily? just wish - something should not happen".. then you will get what you want ;)
in sports, we do have such negative wishes, that team should not win, or should not score more than 1 goal.. etc. But negative wishes are draining.. (would you rather keep a goal, "i won't tell lies, or i won't be violent".. or i will be honest, or i will be peaceful? .. maybe its another blog altogether.
somebody talked about an incident from evening, where a police guy asked a local couple, whether they are married.. and it seemed almost like an interrogation... never seen them do that to foreigners..
some countries dont have a marriage system, it seems.. someone bit far from the fire mentioned. i turned around. it was interesting enough to stop staring at the flying bits of fire, going up fearlessly to meet the unending darkness around. (maybe everyone has that courage, when born.. humans train their children from that onwards, really hard, to turn them conventional)..
but, back to the conversation.. (its backpackers, friendly even in a serious discussion), so, even a statement like that got some innocuous replies first. though another one, similarly covered in darkness said, 'isn't it a leading question or statement? seems like, the moral judgement that marriage system is good is already been passed..
now it was getting warm.. conversation wise. (if you let yourself go with the flow, then backpacking nights lead to so many insightful discussions or even debates). somebody else asked.. what about your parents? if they hadn't stayed together while keeping the sanctity (of marriage), would you be like this here today?
another retorted (i am cutting away many details and sub points of the whole conversation, and writing only the relevant points.. otherwise, it will be like one novel). how much of marriage system is due to patriarchy? due to easy digestion of romantic books, TV, movie etc and cultural pressures?
would a mother, who is now in her 50's or 60's.. from a traditional country, opt to keep the marriage going, if she had enough freedom?
"yeah, its like that Clint Eastwood movie, 'bridges of Madison county'.. Meryl Streep's children find their mother's liberation as shocking..
how can one decide, what things their parents did, should be followed and what should not be followed? is there a logic to it all? will even 2 conventional people, brought up in a blinding middle class community, be agree to what's ok & whats not ok, in totality?
another quipped. lets not bring mothers into this. i respect mine and she has sacrificed a lot.
reply came for that immediately. yeah, but, now i can't help but ask one. would you be willing to live your life like your mother? you should totally be willing right?
Would
you allow your mother, to do all the things, that you wish to do?
Could it be she, who sits here, having a beach night campfire and
conversations, without a care about tomorrow? Or your father, or
brother, or sister, or child or.. anyone.. can people of all
castes, all ages, all occupations, any nationality be here?
maybe
not little children.. they are to be protected.
Till
what age, will they remain children? Just because, 2 people are
involved in the birthing process, do they OWN that human being (in a
child form).. Can people own land, rivers, hills, flowers…
anything in nature? Can they own themselves? Then.. can a person
cut off his hand or leg.. or commit suicide? Consume any substance?
Poison the land belonging to him/her?
Or
maybe, for that, you need a group.. and sometimes, such groups are
called as a 'nation'.. or it could be religious, or some other lobby
or political group, within that nation, or a multinational clique...
and such hugely powerful groups can amass resources to kill others
and do everything with impunity, and the world will shiver..
you are drifting into another topic man.. came a reminder covered in a drawl, which indicated, i could care less..
ok.. basically, what i would like to know is, the same people, who are so crazy obsessed with well-being and protection of their family or some close friends.. how can they be so cruel to another human being at the same time?? aren't every terrorist, soldier, rebel, homicider, exploiter, corrupt person, part of some family? some group? Dont they fiercely protect their own small group?
another added.. you are drifting. so, lets get back to the old topic, before the mother statements came in. . its all like the question - what's faith and what is blind faith? can even two faithful people agree on that?
either you can break out and see things differently or not. and, i won't divide developed and developing countries.. more like, people with net access and without. as net gives lots of exposure... criss crossing information across world wide through social media and internet.. so, its a choice, whether to see beyond one's boundaries or not. another stated lazily..
(the waves in that beach, seemed to be doing just that kind of thing.. hitting with waves of logic, one after another, against the rigid, hardened land..)
at least the waves never give up, a sleepy voice indicate breaking up of that beach night gathering.
...... (other quotes from that night)...
"if you want freedom, and acceptance from others, to be the way you want, then,
you should be willing to let your mother do all those things as well.. can you? can she?
"to be free, one must be willing to give that same freedom to others as well - the more you practice control over others, you too will remain constricted and constipated".
"everyone complains about, injustice, unfair things happened to them.. or done to them... and the difficulties they have to face.
no one questions the opportunities they get, the happiness and freedom they currently have & had... that's taken for granted. and it creates an imbalance.. as even a small % of problems balloon up!"
...
"people think, its the desire to succeed, the strength of the will or wish, which leads us to that...
but isn't it the desire to do things (which may lead to success or happiness), which is to be strong?
"everyone has 1000's of wishes, but the person, who actively pursues by doing, is the person who succeeds. and sometimes, when a successful person, says on TV/print, that they never wished/expected/planned for it... some of the viewers feel jealous.. (how the hell did she/he got it? such a waste of all that fame/success. here i've been wishing for that since years and nothing).
often the wish or desire is for fame and worship.. which certain success can bring. and that takes the focus on to the fame/fandom... and distracts from actually accomplishing - as focus to achieve what needs to be done remains neglected.
these people become known as complaint boxes, or who perennially talk about all the misfortunes, that befall on them.
probably i would have said, in my younger years, to such a person.. "then why dont you wish for what you get easily? just wish - something should not happen".. then you will get what you want ;)
in sports, we do have such negative wishes, that team should not win, or should not score more than 1 goal.. etc. But negative wishes are draining.. (would you rather keep a goal, "i won't tell lies, or i won't be violent".. or i will be honest, or i will be peaceful? .. maybe its another blog altogether.
teaching Hindi through Bollywood song...
A friend, who is from South of India (where Hindi language is not common), is trying to learn Hindi, and asked me for help. Its not easy to speak a language with someone, who is struggling with even basics of it.. as we chatted on, i realized, he is interested in Hindi or Bollywood songs.. so checked mobile to find a song ('aa raat bhar', from Heropanti (2014))...
it was fun.. him listening to the song, listen to few lines of lyrics, and then trying to figure out, how many words he already knows, and getting to know meaning of unknown words.. interesting way to learn a language. the song /music was good too..
below is the song lyrics and its meaning in English (from: http://www.bollymeaning.com/2014/04/aa-raat-bhar-jaayein-na-ghar-lyrics.html)
it was fun.. him listening to the song, listen to few lines of lyrics, and then trying to figure out, how many words he already knows, and getting to know meaning of unknown words.. interesting way to learn a language. the song /music was good too..
below is the song lyrics and its meaning in English (from: http://www.bollymeaning.com/2014/04/aa-raat-bhar-jaayein-na-ghar-lyrics.html)
Aa raat bhar.. aa raat
bhar..
Jaayein na ghar.. jaayein naa ghar..
Hai saath tu.. Kya hai fikar
Jaayein na ghar.. aa raat bhar
Come all night, come all night,
let's not go home, let's not go home,
you're with me, what's the worry,
come, let's not go home all night..
Jaayein jahaan jahaan jahaan dil kare
Jaane kahaan kahaan kahaan phir milein
Is raat mein beete umar, saari umar
Aa raat bhar, jaayein na ghar
Let's go wherever the heart wishes to,
We don't know where again we'd meet.
Our life should pass in this night.
come, let's not go home all night..
Namkeeniyan hain, nazdeekiyaan hain
Rang hi rang hai nazaaron mein
Hansne lagi hoon, phansne lagi hoon
Armaan dil mein hazaaron hain
There is fun, there is closeness,
there are just so many colors in the scenery..
I'm laughing, I've begun to get entrapped,
there are thousands of wishes in my heart.
Kar paar de sabhi hadein
Gale lagein kabhi nahi hone dein sehar
Is raat mein beete umar, saari umar..
Let's cross all limits,
Let's embrace and not let the morning ever come,
Our life should pass in this night, all our lives..
Jaayein na ghar.. jaayein naa ghar..
Hai saath tu.. Kya hai fikar
Jaayein na ghar.. aa raat bhar
Come all night, come all night,
let's not go home, let's not go home,
you're with me, what's the worry,
come, let's not go home all night..
Jaayein jahaan jahaan jahaan dil kare
Jaane kahaan kahaan kahaan phir milein
Is raat mein beete umar, saari umar
Aa raat bhar, jaayein na ghar
Let's go wherever the heart wishes to,
We don't know where again we'd meet.
Our life should pass in this night.
come, let's not go home all night..
Namkeeniyan hain, nazdeekiyaan hain
Rang hi rang hai nazaaron mein
Hansne lagi hoon, phansne lagi hoon
Armaan dil mein hazaaron hain
There is fun, there is closeness,
there are just so many colors in the scenery..
I'm laughing, I've begun to get entrapped,
there are thousands of wishes in my heart.
Kar paar de sabhi hadein
Gale lagein kabhi nahi hone dein sehar
Is raat mein beete umar, saari umar..
Let's cross all limits,
Let's embrace and not let the morning ever come,
Our life should pass in this night, all our lives..
Aa raat bhar.. aa raat bhar..
Jaayein na ghar.. jaayein naa ghar..
Hai saath tu.. Kya hai fikar
Jaayein na ghar.. aa raat bhar
Come all night, come all night,
let's not go home, let's not go home,
you're with me, what's the worry,
come, let's not go home all night..
Jaayein jahaan jahaan jahaan dil kare
Jaane kahaan kahaan kahaan phir milein
Is raat mein beete umar, saari umar
Aa raat bhar, jaayein na ghar
Let's go wherever the heart wishes to,
We don't know where again we'd meet.
Our life should pass in this night.
come, let's not go home all night..
Namkeeniyan hain, nazdeekiyaan hain
Rang hi rang hai nazaaron mein
Hansne lagi hoon, phansne lagi hoon
Armaan dil mein hazaaron hain
There is fun, there is closeness,
there are just so many colors in the scenery..
I'm laughing, I've begun to get entrapped,
there are thousands of wishes in my heart.
Kar paar de sabhi hadein
Gale lagein kabhi nahi hone dein sehar
Is raat mein beete umar, saari umar..
Let's cross all limits,
Let's embrace and not let the morning ever come,
Our life should pass in this night, all our lives.. - See more at: http://www.bollymeaning.com/2014/04/aa-raat-bhar-jaayein-na-ghar-lyrics.html#sthash.ASyiUl3N.dpuf
Jaayein na ghar.. jaayein naa ghar..
Hai saath tu.. Kya hai fikar
Jaayein na ghar.. aa raat bhar
Come all night, come all night,
let's not go home, let's not go home,
you're with me, what's the worry,
come, let's not go home all night..
Jaayein jahaan jahaan jahaan dil kare
Jaane kahaan kahaan kahaan phir milein
Is raat mein beete umar, saari umar
Aa raat bhar, jaayein na ghar
Let's go wherever the heart wishes to,
We don't know where again we'd meet.
Our life should pass in this night.
come, let's not go home all night..
Namkeeniyan hain, nazdeekiyaan hain
Rang hi rang hai nazaaron mein
Hansne lagi hoon, phansne lagi hoon
Armaan dil mein hazaaron hain
There is fun, there is closeness,
there are just so many colors in the scenery..
I'm laughing, I've begun to get entrapped,
there are thousands of wishes in my heart.
Kar paar de sabhi hadein
Gale lagein kabhi nahi hone dein sehar
Is raat mein beete umar, saari umar..
Let's cross all limits,
Let's embrace and not let the morning ever come,
Our life should pass in this night, all our lives.. - See more at: http://www.bollymeaning.com/2014/04/aa-raat-bhar-jaayein-na-ghar-lyrics.html#sthash.ASyiUl3N.dpuf
Aa raat bhar.. aa raat bhar..
Jaayein na ghar.. jaayein naa ghar..
Hai saath tu.. Kya hai fikar
Jaayein na ghar.. aa raat bhar
Come all night, come all night,
let's not go home, let's not go home,
you're with me, what's the worry,
come, let's not go home all night..
Jaayein jahaan jahaan jahaan dil kare
Jaane kahaan kahaan kahaan phir milein
Is raat mein beete umar, saari umar
Aa raat bhar, jaayein na ghar
Let's go wherever the heart wishes to,
We don't know where again we'd meet.
Our life should pass in this night.
come, let's not go home all night..
Namkeeniyan hain, nazdeekiyaan hain
Rang hi rang hai nazaaron mein
Hansne lagi hoon, phansne lagi hoon
Armaan dil mein hazaaron hain
There is fun, there is closeness,
there are just so many colors in the scenery..
I'm laughing, I've begun to get entrapped,
there are thousands of wishes in my heart.
Kar paar de sabhi hadein
Gale lagein kabhi nahi hone dein sehar
Is raat mein beete umar, saari umar..
Let's cross all limits,
Let's embrace and not let the morning ever come,
Our life should pass in this night, all our lives.. - See more at: http://www.bollymeaning.com/2014/04/aa-raat-bhar-jaayein-na-ghar-lyrics.html#sthash.ASyiUl3N.dpuf
Jaayein na ghar.. jaayein naa ghar..
Hai saath tu.. Kya hai fikar
Jaayein na ghar.. aa raat bhar
Come all night, come all night,
let's not go home, let's not go home,
you're with me, what's the worry,
come, let's not go home all night..
Jaayein jahaan jahaan jahaan dil kare
Jaane kahaan kahaan kahaan phir milein
Is raat mein beete umar, saari umar
Aa raat bhar, jaayein na ghar
Let's go wherever the heart wishes to,
We don't know where again we'd meet.
Our life should pass in this night.
come, let's not go home all night..
Namkeeniyan hain, nazdeekiyaan hain
Rang hi rang hai nazaaron mein
Hansne lagi hoon, phansne lagi hoon
Armaan dil mein hazaaron hain
There is fun, there is closeness,
there are just so many colors in the scenery..
I'm laughing, I've begun to get entrapped,
there are thousands of wishes in my heart.
Kar paar de sabhi hadein
Gale lagein kabhi nahi hone dein sehar
Is raat mein beete umar, saari umar..
Let's cross all limits,
Let's embrace and not let the morning ever come,
Our life should pass in this night, all our lives.. - See more at: http://www.bollymeaning.com/2014/04/aa-raat-bhar-jaayein-na-ghar-lyrics.html#sthash.ASyiUl3N.dpuf
Aa raat bhar.. aa raat bhar..
Jaayein na ghar.. jaayein naa ghar..
Hai saath tu.. Kya hai fikar
Jaayein na ghar.. aa raat bhar
Come all night, come all night,
let's not go home, let's not go home,
you're with me, what's the worry,
come, let's not go home all night..
Jaayein jahaan jahaan jahaan dil kare
Jaane kahaan kahaan kahaan phir milein
Is raat mein beete umar, saari umar
Aa raat bhar, jaayein na ghar
Let's go wherever the heart wishes to,
We don't know where again we'd meet.
Our life should pass in this night.
come, let's not go home all night..
Namkeeniyan hain, nazdeekiyaan hain
Rang hi rang hai nazaaron mein
Hansne lagi hoon, phansne lagi hoon
Armaan dil mein hazaaron hain
There is fun, there is closeness,
there are just so many colors in the scenery..
I'm laughing, I've begun to get entrapped,
there are thousands of wishes in my heart.
Kar paar de sabhi hadein
Gale lagein kabhi nahi hone dein sehar
Is raat mein beete umar, saari umar..
Let's cross all limits,
Let's embrace and not let the morning ever come,
Our life should pass in this night, all our lives.. - See more at: http://www.bollymeaning.com/2014/04/aa-raat-bhar-jaayein-na-ghar-lyrics.html#sthash.ASyiUl3N.dpuf
Jaayein na ghar.. jaayein naa ghar..
Hai saath tu.. Kya hai fikar
Jaayein na ghar.. aa raat bhar
Come all night, come all night,
let's not go home, let's not go home,
you're with me, what's the worry,
come, let's not go home all night..
Jaayein jahaan jahaan jahaan dil kare
Jaane kahaan kahaan kahaan phir milein
Is raat mein beete umar, saari umar
Aa raat bhar, jaayein na ghar
Let's go wherever the heart wishes to,
We don't know where again we'd meet.
Our life should pass in this night.
come, let's not go home all night..
Namkeeniyan hain, nazdeekiyaan hain
Rang hi rang hai nazaaron mein
Hansne lagi hoon, phansne lagi hoon
Armaan dil mein hazaaron hain
There is fun, there is closeness,
there are just so many colors in the scenery..
I'm laughing, I've begun to get entrapped,
there are thousands of wishes in my heart.
Kar paar de sabhi hadein
Gale lagein kabhi nahi hone dein sehar
Is raat mein beete umar, saari umar..
Let's cross all limits,
Let's embrace and not let the morning ever come,
Our life should pass in this night, all our lives.. - See more at: http://www.bollymeaning.com/2014/04/aa-raat-bhar-jaayein-na-ghar-lyrics.html#sthash.ASyiUl3N.dpuf
Friday, April 24, 2015
series 7... self reflection
SR series 7:
would there be a world, without negativity?
when something bad happens, i get frustrated, angry, disappointed, hopeless, stupid and a lot of other things. when my human right is blocked, when someone else in control, enforce their ideas on to me, it becomes hell. i have not met anyone, who has overcome negativity totally..
then, isn't all that, the pain, hurt, injustice, unfair control, suppression etc. part of our life? will they ever go away completely?
then, why do i get so upset with those happenings, even though i have faced them countless times in my life so far? does it make sense to expect only positivity every time? and didn't that pain/hurt etc helped me to grow as well.. forced me to be more creative and develop ways to overcome challenges?
yes.. negativity does exist and has helped me too, even though it has made me miserable and taken me through various shades of uncomfortable states. and i generally try to avoid such states, as anyone else too would.
but, have i accepted that, its all inevitable parts of life? can i accept, just like trees with tasty fruits, nature also has thorny trees and poisonous berries? can i include them into my expectations as well.. or will i keep keeping ONLY positive expectations?
(for me, realizing all this seems like a big thing, though how well i have been able to express, in a clear way i am not so sure.. but i am trying to share.. hope you will feel that way too, about your feedback after reading all this). and, even if you dont share, i will try to accept it calmly as well.. and i need lots of practice ;)
would there be a world, without negativity?
when something bad happens, i get frustrated, angry, disappointed, hopeless, stupid and a lot of other things. when my human right is blocked, when someone else in control, enforce their ideas on to me, it becomes hell. i have not met anyone, who has overcome negativity totally..
then, isn't all that, the pain, hurt, injustice, unfair control, suppression etc. part of our life? will they ever go away completely?
then, why do i get so upset with those happenings, even though i have faced them countless times in my life so far? does it make sense to expect only positivity every time? and didn't that pain/hurt etc helped me to grow as well.. forced me to be more creative and develop ways to overcome challenges?
yes.. negativity does exist and has helped me too, even though it has made me miserable and taken me through various shades of uncomfortable states. and i generally try to avoid such states, as anyone else too would.
but, have i accepted that, its all inevitable parts of life? can i accept, just like trees with tasty fruits, nature also has thorny trees and poisonous berries? can i include them into my expectations as well.. or will i keep keeping ONLY positive expectations?
(for me, realizing all this seems like a big thing, though how well i have been able to express, in a clear way i am not so sure.. but i am trying to share.. hope you will feel that way too, about your feedback after reading all this). and, even if you dont share, i will try to accept it calmly as well.. and i need lots of practice ;)
Thursday, April 23, 2015
why do we have to be honest with ourselves?
April Reflection (AR) series 1:
i must admit, when i was in my early 20's, i was lot more scared than now.. it was all, bit by bit, through gradual exploration, i was able to overcome my cultural conditioning.
the falsehoods weren't swept away like spider webs in a day or two. i am here at my stage, after 20 or more years of 'one step at a time' towards freedom of mind. there's still a long way to go i know.
(though, sometimes, when i see today's youth, i get impatient and want them to jump ahead into that free state quickly.
but, i keep meeting, many youngsters who are already cool with self & nature)
AR series 2:
its generally painful to be honest with others.. but, to be with self, it can be more heart wrenching. (and that's why often we find it easy to lie to self, and accepting some bitter truth about ourselves becomes such an irritant).
but, what could happen? don't people always try to fool self / brain / some parts of brain or thought spectrum, to overcome stage fear, test anxiety, and other million things like approaching a desirable girl/boy?
the long term consequence is what comes up. when we tend to lie to our self, the chances of our decisions (based on our own preferences/liking) tends to go wrong as well. i take up a job, because its prestigious in the eyes of my society, or community, peer group or whatever.. but, soon, i start hating it.. it could be same with partnering up with a girl/boy.. because they are socially approved as, good looking, successful, humorous, can sing or act well, is polite, buys you lots of things etc. leads to later life frustrations.
(then, sometimes, people become possessive and cling on to that relationship, because, there is stigma, if i keep changing partners, and break up indicates, i failed in my decision making. which makes them unhappy and that gets thrown around, leading to an unhappy environment as well).
without being happy inside, how can we share happiness with others? positive energy that is. if we do so, it will be just pretense and sooner or later other people would sense your energy as falsified, and become distant even without being aware of it.
its not easy being honest with self.. (i will be honest with you about it ;)
but, if you do, and keep doing, it takes continuous efforts, then it can lead to better self realization. reduction in confusion about, what am i? how am i? where am i & where am i going? etc. questions wouldn't haunt you as much. just like the way, change in fear levels happen.. as you grow from childhood to maturity, where the old fear of darkness, night, ghosts, some other thing etc. become less intense and threatening, as we mature.. they don't completely go away, but, our self awareness and assurance would have improved.
so, that's it.. no more advertising.. its up to you.. you know yourself best?
AR series 3:
i would say, about couple of years ago, there was a change in me, a very sudden one..
my thinking focused on unknown areas to me, and i traveled / backpacked again.. to be basically with self and to be with positive, peace people (backpackers generally are) and those who share strange unconventional journeys themselves. their vibes helped and i realize now, after 2 years of thinking (you can call it backpacking too).. how i rudely reacted against some people, especially in a second phase of backpacking... and later on too, though less.
it wasn't you, but my own limitations at level of acceptance of others.. even some parts of nature.. repelled me and i would react strongly..
can't say i have control over it, or am better at it, but first step of awareness, and some acceptance is there (which this open letter to all, those i know and those i dont know, may indicate...)
why should i keep hatred in this limited edition of a game?
can i win without cheat codes?
most importantly, can i re-program this game? (played in mind)
reprogramming computer games, i dont know IT that much. but my own life game.. i can code or recode.. i have to learn to do that, otherwise i will keep operating on some other operating system, which wouldn't be suitable to ME version 1.0
i wont be able to change the whole game platform or operating system i was born with, in one go. but i can do gradual, one thing at a time changes..
though the game has to continue while i repair!
its not easy, but who wants to play an easy game? you'd get bored.
so, first of all, i apologize heartfelt, at any or all people, with whom i have reacted in a rude, inhuman way.. i will keep on trying to improve my Non-Violent Communication (NVC)..
though, rather than using a negative to change my attitude & behavior, i say, peaceful, positive, organic growth (sustainable) based communication - is what i will try to achieve. . which also automatically would be ethical..
i would like to reconnect with you all, if possible.. of course, mental wounds take a long time to heal!
AR series 3:
and then, i try to send every one i know, (& dont know), a big mental energy.. think of it as a pure energy embrace.. without reservations, without any thoughts or intentions.. just the way we should embrace nature..
hope such a hug can go viral.. so, share it with all you can.
its easy to connect and encourage people - whom you appreciate more & get irritated the least.
but, expanding our self consciousness & ability to share pure positive energy to others, who are not so close and irritate us more is not so easy...
we can only gradually expand in that direction.. but do try my friend to share positivity as much as you can...
whether you realize it or not, we all are part of this nature and share more similarities with each other than differences. Even our DNA is 99% similar and only 1% is different.. or something like that.
so lets celebrate that 99% of shared matter and send pure energy across to everyone else... or just share... one can't do it all, but all of us can do it one by one.. best wishes!
AR series 4:
Exploring inner self...
when you go inward for self discoveries, have lots of positivity, encouraging energy inside yourself. you should like the place you go, and it should share positive energy with you as well..
for that, you have to be a friend to yoruself.
first, there are conflicting ideals and concepts within one person. but can we accept them, as we accept a friend?
the best practice for that, is by trying to be such a friend overall... improve your friendship connections with others.. its nothing but a part of learning, to treat self as a friend as well...
and there will be automatically enough positivity in you... your introspective journeys will become more & more enjoyable, like backpacking trips.. (or any other joyful activity you prefer).
derive happiness intrinsically and keep sharing it with others.. by sharing it with others, you teach yourself to share internally as well.. (when your own internal concept compete and fight with each other, frustration can be the end result.
often people feel, they can fool others by putting on a facade, by covering up their faces/body and pretending. but, can you fool yourself? so, practice what you want to be done with yourself, with others (you may say, old bottle in new wine... but, wouldn't it make this world a better world be a better place to live in?)
and do you have any other planet to shift to? ;)
AR series 5:
why do we have to be honest with ourselves?
its generally painful to be honest with others.. but, to be with self, it can be more heart wrenching. (and thats why often we find it easy to lie to self, and accepting some bitter truth about ourselves becomes such an irritant).
but, what could happen? dont people always try to fool self / brain / some parts of brain or thought spectrum, to overcome stage fear, test anxiety, and other million things like approaching a desirable girl/boy?
the long term consequence is what comes up. when we tend to lie to our self, the chances of our decisions (based on our own preferences/liking) tends to go wrong as well. i take up a job, because its prestigious in the eyes of my society, or community, peer group or whatever.. but, soon, i start hating it.. it could be same with partnering up with a girl/boy.. because they are socially approved as, good looking, successful, humorous, can sing or act well, is polite, buys you lots of things etc. leads to later life frustrations.
(then, sometimes, people become possessive and cling on to that relationship, because, there is stigma, if i keep changing partners, and break up indicates, i failed in my decision making. which makes them unhappy and that gets thrown around, leading to an unhappy environment as well).
without being happy inside, how can we share happiness with others? positive energy that is. if we do so, it will be just pretense and sooner or later other people would sense your energy as falsified, and become distant even without being aware of it.
its not easy being honest with self.. (i will be honest with you about it wink emoticon
but, if you do, and keep doing, it takes continuous efforts, then it can lead to better self realization. reduction in confusion about, what am i? how am i? where am i & where am i going? etc. questions wouldn't haunt you as much. just like the way, change in fear levels happen.. as you grow from childhood to maturity, where the old fear of darkness, night, ghosts, some other thing etc. become less intense and threatening, as we mature.. they dont completely go away, but, our self awareness and assurance would have improved.
so, that's it.. no more advertising.. its up to you.. you know yourself best?
i must admit, when i was in my early 20's, i was lot more scared than now.. it was all, bit by bit, through gradual exploration, i was able to overcome my cultural conditioning.
the falsehoods weren't swept away like spider webs in a day or two. i am here at my stage, after 20 or more years of 'one step at a time' towards freedom of mind. there's still a long way to go i know.
(though, sometimes, when i see today's youth, i get impatient and want them to jump ahead into that free state quickly.
but, i keep meeting, many youngsters who are already cool with self & nature)
AR series 2:
its generally painful to be honest with others.. but, to be with self, it can be more heart wrenching. (and that's why often we find it easy to lie to self, and accepting some bitter truth about ourselves becomes such an irritant).
but, what could happen? don't people always try to fool self / brain / some parts of brain or thought spectrum, to overcome stage fear, test anxiety, and other million things like approaching a desirable girl/boy?
the long term consequence is what comes up. when we tend to lie to our self, the chances of our decisions (based on our own preferences/liking) tends to go wrong as well. i take up a job, because its prestigious in the eyes of my society, or community, peer group or whatever.. but, soon, i start hating it.. it could be same with partnering up with a girl/boy.. because they are socially approved as, good looking, successful, humorous, can sing or act well, is polite, buys you lots of things etc. leads to later life frustrations.
(then, sometimes, people become possessive and cling on to that relationship, because, there is stigma, if i keep changing partners, and break up indicates, i failed in my decision making. which makes them unhappy and that gets thrown around, leading to an unhappy environment as well).
without being happy inside, how can we share happiness with others? positive energy that is. if we do so, it will be just pretense and sooner or later other people would sense your energy as falsified, and become distant even without being aware of it.
its not easy being honest with self.. (i will be honest with you about it ;)
but, if you do, and keep doing, it takes continuous efforts, then it can lead to better self realization. reduction in confusion about, what am i? how am i? where am i & where am i going? etc. questions wouldn't haunt you as much. just like the way, change in fear levels happen.. as you grow from childhood to maturity, where the old fear of darkness, night, ghosts, some other thing etc. become less intense and threatening, as we mature.. they don't completely go away, but, our self awareness and assurance would have improved.
so, that's it.. no more advertising.. its up to you.. you know yourself best?
AR series 3:
i would say, about couple of years ago, there was a change in me, a very sudden one..
my thinking focused on unknown areas to me, and i traveled / backpacked again.. to be basically with self and to be with positive, peace people (backpackers generally are) and those who share strange unconventional journeys themselves. their vibes helped and i realize now, after 2 years of thinking (you can call it backpacking too).. how i rudely reacted against some people, especially in a second phase of backpacking... and later on too, though less.
it wasn't you, but my own limitations at level of acceptance of others.. even some parts of nature.. repelled me and i would react strongly..
can't say i have control over it, or am better at it, but first step of awareness, and some acceptance is there (which this open letter to all, those i know and those i dont know, may indicate...)
why should i keep hatred in this limited edition of a game?
can i win without cheat codes?
most importantly, can i re-program this game? (played in mind)
reprogramming computer games, i dont know IT that much. but my own life game.. i can code or recode.. i have to learn to do that, otherwise i will keep operating on some other operating system, which wouldn't be suitable to ME version 1.0
i wont be able to change the whole game platform or operating system i was born with, in one go. but i can do gradual, one thing at a time changes..
though the game has to continue while i repair!
its not easy, but who wants to play an easy game? you'd get bored.
so, first of all, i apologize heartfelt, at any or all people, with whom i have reacted in a rude, inhuman way.. i will keep on trying to improve my Non-Violent Communication (NVC)..
though, rather than using a negative to change my attitude & behavior, i say, peaceful, positive, organic growth (sustainable) based communication - is what i will try to achieve. . which also automatically would be ethical..
i would like to reconnect with you all, if possible.. of course, mental wounds take a long time to heal!
AR series 3:
and then, i try to send every one i know, (& dont know), a big mental energy.. think of it as a pure energy embrace.. without reservations, without any thoughts or intentions.. just the way we should embrace nature..
hope such a hug can go viral.. so, share it with all you can.
its easy to connect and encourage people - whom you appreciate more & get irritated the least.
but, expanding our self consciousness & ability to share pure positive energy to others, who are not so close and irritate us more is not so easy...
we can only gradually expand in that direction.. but do try my friend to share positivity as much as you can...
whether you realize it or not, we all are part of this nature and share more similarities with each other than differences. Even our DNA is 99% similar and only 1% is different.. or something like that.
so lets celebrate that 99% of shared matter and send pure energy across to everyone else... or just share... one can't do it all, but all of us can do it one by one.. best wishes!
AR series 4:
Exploring inner self...
when you go inward for self discoveries, have lots of positivity, encouraging energy inside yourself. you should like the place you go, and it should share positive energy with you as well..
for that, you have to be a friend to yoruself.
first, there are conflicting ideals and concepts within one person. but can we accept them, as we accept a friend?
the best practice for that, is by trying to be such a friend overall... improve your friendship connections with others.. its nothing but a part of learning, to treat self as a friend as well...
and there will be automatically enough positivity in you... your introspective journeys will become more & more enjoyable, like backpacking trips.. (or any other joyful activity you prefer).
derive happiness intrinsically and keep sharing it with others.. by sharing it with others, you teach yourself to share internally as well.. (when your own internal concept compete and fight with each other, frustration can be the end result.
often people feel, they can fool others by putting on a facade, by covering up their faces/body and pretending. but, can you fool yourself? so, practice what you want to be done with yourself, with others (you may say, old bottle in new wine... but, wouldn't it make this world a better world be a better place to live in?)
and do you have any other planet to shift to? ;)
AR series 5:
why do we have to be honest with ourselves?
its generally painful to be honest with others.. but, to be with self, it can be more heart wrenching. (and thats why often we find it easy to lie to self, and accepting some bitter truth about ourselves becomes such an irritant).
but, what could happen? dont people always try to fool self / brain / some parts of brain or thought spectrum, to overcome stage fear, test anxiety, and other million things like approaching a desirable girl/boy?
the long term consequence is what comes up. when we tend to lie to our self, the chances of our decisions (based on our own preferences/liking) tends to go wrong as well. i take up a job, because its prestigious in the eyes of my society, or community, peer group or whatever.. but, soon, i start hating it.. it could be same with partnering up with a girl/boy.. because they are socially approved as, good looking, successful, humorous, can sing or act well, is polite, buys you lots of things etc. leads to later life frustrations.
(then, sometimes, people become possessive and cling on to that relationship, because, there is stigma, if i keep changing partners, and break up indicates, i failed in my decision making. which makes them unhappy and that gets thrown around, leading to an unhappy environment as well).
without being happy inside, how can we share happiness with others? positive energy that is. if we do so, it will be just pretense and sooner or later other people would sense your energy as falsified, and become distant even without being aware of it.
its not easy being honest with self.. (i will be honest with you about it wink emoticon
but, if you do, and keep doing, it takes continuous efforts, then it can lead to better self realization. reduction in confusion about, what am i? how am i? where am i & where am i going? etc. questions wouldn't haunt you as much. just like the way, change in fear levels happen.. as you grow from childhood to maturity, where the old fear of darkness, night, ghosts, some other thing etc. become less intense and threatening, as we mature.. they dont completely go away, but, our self awareness and assurance would have improved.
so, that's it.. no more advertising.. its up to you.. you know yourself best?
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